Friday, September 26, 2014

Getting my groove...

This is been a week full of highs and lows on this weight-loss journey. Some days I feel so snacky and I feel like I just want to binge all over the place. But other times, like today, I feel very strong and full of resolve.  

I must admit that it's an amazing feeling to fit in a pair of pants that didn't fit you last month and also wear a hand-me-down shirt that belonged to my 16-year-old child.

I know that I'm not supposed to, but I have peeked at the scale several times this week. I almost had a breakdown just because I am not losing like I was a few weeks ago. 

But this morning it hit me that there is a reason why the people at Personal Trainer Food tell you do not stand on the scale more than twice during your 28 days. They tell you to really watch the inches that you're losing and how your clothes feel. And honestly, my clothes feel pretty amazing right now. I know that I'm losing inches even if it's not showing on the scale. And I'm sure that it being my time of the month doesn't help matters either.

Lesson learned about the scale. Again.

My goals for the weekend include drinking more water and getting more exercise. I know that life is really busy during the week but I've got to find time to get more activity in. I just really feel like I need it for my sanity.

And I know that I'm slacking on the water. My goal is to get back to at least a gallon a day or half my bodyweight like I'm supposed to.

I made another important decision this week. I have decided that I am not going to stop my low-carb journey when I go on vacation on October 9. I know that one reason that I decided to do the personal trainer food was to get back on track before I went on vacation. But what's the use of getting back on track when I go on vacation if I'm just going to ruin all of my progress while I'm on vacation! Since there is a kitchen in our condo there is really no excuse for me not to take my food on vacation with me and stay on plan while I'm there. 

I guess I'm starting to think in longer-term goals. I really would love to end the year 2014 below 250 pounds. I have not been below 254 since I started this journey in December 2012. And you all know that I've been between 254 and 260 something pounds for the past year or so. Except for the last month or so when I backslid to almost 280.

It's time to get this weight-loss journey pumped up again. I really believe that I have the tools now that I have my food under control. Now it's just time to have discipline and consistency and get the job done.

Since several have asked, and several people are even ordering (yay!), here is a link you can use to order Personal Trainer Food and get $50 off!

Monday, September 22, 2014

21 days...

2 lbs down this week... 14 lbs total since Sept. 1. I'm officially back in my 'normal' range of 258-265. But trust me, I'm trying to blow past that. 

I was scrolling through pictures tonight and ran across two pictures that were taken exactly 2 weeks apart. 

Look at the difference in belly fat since I started the Personal Trainer Food! I can really tell a difference in my clothes, too. 

Getting rid of the sugar and bad carbs REALLY makes a difference for me. And I'm never hungry anymore. 

I'm ready to make this week great!

Saturday, September 20, 2014

Two things...

Two major things of been on my mind this morning. Just rambling thoughts really...

First thing: I was really nervous when I ordered the personal trainer food because it was such a big financial commitment. But at the time I was desperate to get back on track. I just went for it. And now I'm really glad I did.

Yesterday was a huge struggle food wise. I don't know why, but the cravings were out of control. I just wanted any and everything that I could get my hands on that was not on my plan. I think it may have been triggered by the donuts the day before. But the cravings are really bad. 

I know that the only thing that kept me on track with the fact that all of my food was preprepared for me. I did not have to think about what I was going to eat because it was already prepared. See, I have three big bags in my deep-freeze her that I choose from each night. 

Each night before bed I go downstairs and choose two meats, two veggies and a breakfast. I keep my snacks upstairs because they don't need to go in the freezer. In the mornings all I have to do is throw everything from my upstairs freezer into my lunchbox for the day. Easy.

That totally saved me yesterday. 

Second thing: my grocery bill has gone down considerably over the past two weeks. I didn't realize how much I was spending on my own food. I try to cook healthy meals for my children, but they are pretty simple. Nowadays, mostly the groceries are for school lunches and for quick dinners for the kids. 

So once again, the investment is justified. I am almost certain that I will be ordering this again after vacation next month. Like my good friend said yesterday, convenience wins!

Friday, September 19, 2014

Week 3 of low carb...

Almost at the end of week 3 of low-carb and I feel like I'm doing well! Still no cheats, and still doing the Personal Trainer Food. It's starting to feel 'normal' but certain things make me know I'll never be normal when it comes to food.

One of my students brought donuts yesterday from my favorite local bakery for his birthday. I felt like my life would END of I didn't have just one. I could smell them from across the room. But I didn't have one. And it was a HARD decision.

I dread going to Kroger because the Halloween Cadbury eggs are out, and also candy corn. Both are binge items and both make me feel happy to my soul when I eat them. 

I'm not exaggerating either.

But I know I will just have to fight those battles as they come along. Food addiction (any addiction) is hard to beat. Three weeks is just a drop in the bucket to how much time I'll actually need to get really clarity and maybe some good weight loss. 

That's why I still think ordering the food and making that commitment was a good idea. My food choices are made for me when I'm too weak to do it myself. And it also keeps me out the grocery store more often. I do a weekly trip to Aldi for the kids groceries and some salad fixings for me and that's usually it. 

Progress pic as of today. Size 18 pants from Old Navy and size Xl shirt from NY&CO. 

Also a few pics of my favorite foods this week...

I've been eating a big salad for lunch each day... with some kind of chopped chicken.

I'm loving the maple sausage. And I don't even like sausage, lol.

For dinner each night I'm doing two veggies and a meat.

And FYI... the garlic sauce provided with the meals is crack for veggies. I love it!

Saturday, September 13, 2014

My week in food... and yes, it's good!

This week has been another crazy, busy, hectic week. But through it all I've been so thankful for the investment made in the Personal Trainer Food. It has TRULY kept me on track. You can't ask for meals that are more easy to prepare and convenient. I pack my insulated lunch box and a microwavable dish with me at all times and so far, I've been able to eat whenever I feel hungry. (Which is not as often now that the cravings have subsided).

Here is a sample of some of my meals this week:

As you can see, each lunch and dinner consists of a meat (I pretty much chose all types of chicken since I don't eat beef) and a veggie. All of the meats are seasoned really well and are remarkably tasty. The veggies are fresh and are yummy with the garlic sauce they provide. 

The breakfasts usually have eggs or omelets and sausage. I am not a sausage fan, but the maple sausage is the bomb!

Every night before I got to bed, I go down to my deep freezer in the garage and choose my food for the following day. Two meats, two veggies, and a breakfast. I bring them upstairs and put them in the kitchen freezer. The next morning its super easy to pack what I need in my insulated lunchbox along with a snack (also provided). If I know I'm going to be gone all day, I'll pack everything. Sometimes I add a couple of boiled eggs or a side salad (which is allowed) if I know I'm going to exercise or if I think I'm going to need more to get me through a long day.

You can add any meat or veggie or eggs that you want (if this amount of food isn't enough). But so far, I think this food is plenty. When you are eating good carbs and whole foods, I just don't think your body needs as much. Just two weeks into low-carb living, I find that I am more satisfied with my small meals and am not hungry as much. 

I still WANT sugar and bad carbs, though... but the cravings are not intense. Honestly, the first week I felt like crying everytime I was faced with a food that I can't have. Sad, huh? But now, I just look longingly at the pizza and keep going, lol.

This will all be worth it. I know I am making the best, most healthy choice for my body. I am SO ready to start losing weight again. 

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Tune into Dr. Oz on Friday!

Remember my awesome trip to NYC a few weeks ago? Well, I can now announce that it was to tape a very short segment of the Dr. Oz Show! I'm on there for MAYBE 5 minutes, but hey... I was on TV!

The show will air on Friday (Sept 12). And I'm pretty sure it's the segment right at the beginning of the show. Dr. Oz's new season is all about getting 'Healthy' back, so that's what me and a few other women talk about. How we are getting healthy back. 

I'll blog more on the EXACT issue I talked about on the show once it airs. It's been REALLY relavent lately! 

I also just want to say in advance that I'm already getting nervous about being seen (and seeing myself) on TV. The camera adds 20 lbs. and I don't need all that! 

Oh, well. It was a great experience either way!

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Meal prep for 28 days... Done!

Tonight I am ending my 7th day of low-carb living. Has it been breezy? NO. But it is getting better. I've eliminated all added sugar and "bad" carbs. All this week the only carbs I eat are fruit and veggies. And this weekend I have eliminated even further. Today I haven't even had fruit. The "carb flu" is gone, but the cravings are still there sometimes. I know it will continue to get easier.

I am excited about tomorrow because I am trying something totally new. I have invested in my meal prep for the next 28 days from Personal Trainer Food. This company often has great deals on Amazon Local and Groupon. After doing my research, I was sold. The food is not processed and is based on a low-carb diet. Basically, you're eating eggs, meat, and veggies. That's it. NO CHEATING.

The point of their plan is to replace all the "wrong" foods with all the "right" foods. If you form good eating habits and make it a routine, you will successfully lose weight. 

Hey... that's what I've been trying to do, right?

So, this is going to make things a bit easier for me. The past month has been rough... work has been super stressful. Now I have physical therapy and softball most afternoons. Not to mention getting my kids all the other places they have to go. I survived last week while still eating right, but some evenings I was starving until I could get my low-carb meal in order. 

I know that's not a good way to stay on plan and consistent. So hopefully, not having to plan or buy my meals will be the key to KEEPING on track. And I don't feel bad because I'm eating a lot of processed junk.

I got my big, HUGE, box of goods yesterday.

Honestly, it was better than I expected. The veggies look fresh and REAL. The portions look substantial. And from my online research on this company and the food, everything SHOULD taste really good. 

I completed my 24-48 hour recommended fast today, and even got in a short workout. I'm ready. I've already grabbed all of my food for tomorrow from my deep freezer and have it in my kitchen freezer ready to go. It's amazingly simple. 

Just like I need it to be. Lord knows I have enough other stuff to figure out right now!

I can't wait to tell you how this goes.

And remember, use this link to check it out for $50 off!

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Size Slim - Garcinia Cambogia review

A few weeks ago, I was approached by Barbara at SizeSlim about trying their supplement, Size Slim Garcinia Cambogia, for free in exchange for my honest review. Now, before everyone freaks out... I'd heard of this supplement before when I was doing research on the Dr. Oz show (more on that later!). Dr. Oz REALLY recommended it, so watch the video on that link for all the information you need about what GC does and how it works. I compared the recommendations with the product they were offering and figured I'd give it a try. There aren't any crazy side effects listed. It really is a natural supplement.

I actually got the product before I decided to re-commit to my journey... I took it for a few days and noticed an increase in energy, but I didn't feel jittery (which is good). I fell off for about a week, but decided to start taking it again this weekend when I started doing low-carb. I've decided that I like it... I feel like I'm not as HUNGRY as I usually am when doing low-carb. Yes, the cravings are still there, but the hunger isn't. And again, I do still feel like I have more energy. I've been working 12+ hour days and I'm not wiped out (yet). 

I'm not sure about the fat burning component just yet... We will see how that goes. With any type of supplement, you really have to use it along with diet and exercise for it to work. And that's what I'm doing. This isn't a magic pill, but they don't exist anyway. I'm just hoping it will give me a boost. I need any help I can get right now.

If you're interested, check this product out at They've even offered a promo code for 10% off (SKINNYHOLLIE10). I did my research on the company... their product is priced well and meet all of Dr. Oz's specifications for good product. That has to mean something, right? :)

Day 4... Good news!

Today is day four of my low-carb/no sugar re-start and I'm already down almost 7 lbs. I wish I could say it's been easy so far, but I'd be LYING through my teeth. I want comfort food in the worst way.

My stress level is through the roof. New responsibilities at work are proving to be very overwhelming for me. I feel like no matter how much I work I just can't get caught up to where I need to be. I'm trying to stay positive but it's hard. 

I just want to eat. Lots of sugar and candy and cake and carbs. 

But I know I'd be miserable. And I'd keep getting bigger and bigger.

So I must stay on the course that I've chosen. Because at the end of the day, it's the right one for me. I know that time will make it better, and that hopefully in a week or so I'll feel much better.

I did get SOME great news yesterday. My physical therapist has cleared me to exercise again! I'm allowed to do the elliptical and some jogging intervals as long as I can do so without pain. She really made me do a lot of work yesterday with lower body weights and she said my resistance level is really good. She wants to see how adding exercise makes my knee feel. 

I have to say I'm really happy to get back to working out... I just have to get back into a routine with it. I've got 10,000 things going on in the evening so making time will be a must. But I will. Because I need desperately to get back to where I was so I can feel successful again.

I've also made another big investment to make sure that I stay on track... I have ordered a food plan from a company called Personal Trainer Food. It's not processed food... real food that includes protein and veggies. It's actually to help folks like me establish good eating routines again. It's an investment in good health and I'm excited about it. Meal prep without the prep!

Check it out, and use this link if you order (please!)

Thank for all the words of support. I'm feeling kind of low right now, but I'm very hopeful that I'll be back on the right track sooner than later. I'm so ready to make some progress again!

Monday, September 1, 2014

September 1... Starting over

I made up my mind this weekend that today, September 1, 2014, would be my "new" starting point on this weight loss journey. 

I am out of control. 

Although my goals are always in sight, I have officially fallen off the weight loss wagon. Hell, I've fallen off and got run over by it.

I am not eating according to my goals at all. This past month has been rough. School started, and the stress just started rolling in. And a new job assignment (I'm still teaching) just added to it.

Did I mention that I fell and hurt my knee at work less than a week into the school year? Yeah... So I'm not allowed to do any type of exercise that I like - only the recumbent bike that I HATE! I'm not even motivated to go to the gym. 

I'm not motivated at all. I just eat. And eat some more. And I feel sick because I know I'm out of control. So it makes me depressed. And work makes me stressed out. So I eat more. Because that's always the solution, right?

Well, I shouldn't have been surprised to see this number this morning.

But I was. I've been hovering between 270 - 275 lbs all month. I DID NOT expect to be this close to 280 this morning. I was disgusted. Horrified. Discouraged. Angry. 

But also determined. I know what to do. I have cleared all the "bad" stuff out of my house and replaced it with "good" stuff. I have hopefully set myself up for a good week. An awesome week.

I know it will be hard. I'm choosing low-carb, no sugar/sweets/bread. I know this works for me... even though my food addiction tells me that eliminating food groups isn't the answer. But deep down I know that I just can't handle moderation. I need to go cold turkey and get the sugar out of my system. I am an addict. 

What works for some does NOT work for all. Why is it that we don't tell an alcoholic or drug addict to use in moderation, but we tell food addicts that it's okay? It's not okay for me. It's not. (and I will have to remind myself of this in a few days when I'm jonesing for some sugar)...

I won't post these on Instagram or Facebook right now because I'm embarrassed. But here's my new "before" pics. I know a lot of this puffiness is bloat. But I still feel awful. I'm so disappointed.