Thursday, December 26, 2013
Monday, December 23, 2013
I didn't realize until today how much technology played into my workout! I started on the treadmill to do intervals, but I couldn't get my music app OR the nike app to work! I was about ready to fling my phone across the gym because I was so mad, but after turning the phone off and back on I at least got my music to work. It was at this time I realized I had forgot to turn on my HRM! So it took a good 13 min to get it together, but I had a good workout. 30 min on the treadmill, 15 min on a new machine that's a cross between a stepper and an elliptical? Not sure what it's called.
Saturday, December 21, 2013
Friday, December 20, 2013
Thursday, December 19, 2013
Sunday, December 8, 2013
My name is Hollie, and I'm a compulsive overeater, a food addict, and sugar addict.
This is my reality. And it's time that I started dealing with this again, or else I'm going to be over 300 lbs again before I know it.
A week ago, I celebrated one year of continuously striving for weight loss and a healthy lifestyle. I was feeling pretty good, I had a plan of action, and I was ready to make things happen.
Then, something happened. I had a death in the family. I had to deal with some emotions brought on from someone in my past. Work was stressful. Add to that the already high level of tension I am feeling from being a single parent who is struggling financially through the holiday season and it happened.
The binging started Wednesday. And it didn't end until today.
I guess I am thankful that I'm able to recognize what's happening, but it feels awful nonetheless. A friend suggested writing in a journal, and after a short time of writing yesterday I had to admit to myself that I just can't handle sugar.
See, last December when I got started, I also began attending Overeater Annonymous meetings. I didn't realize that compulsive overheating and sugar addiction was so real until I started attending those meetings. And remember, I stayed clean (sugar free) for 90+ days. But during that time, I was also attending meetings. When soccer started this spring, I stopped going to the meetings and the sugar crept back in.
I didn't see it as a problem. I was in control. I had a 'cheat' here and there... No big deal.
Fast forward 8 months. I indulge in sugary treats whenever I want, and even when I try to abstain, I still fail to keep sweets out of my diet. And now I'm binging again.
I have come to the conclusion that many people in my OA meetings already know... I just can't have it. Sweet, sugary treats are not just something I can enjoy on occasion. I'm going to have to eliminate them entirely. At least for a while. Maybe someday after the weight is off and I've maintained a while, I can add occasional sweets back in. But right now... It's cold turkey.
My addicted brain tells me to wait until New Years, but I already made it through last years holiday season with no treats, so I know I can do it again. I just don't want to. But I have to.
I recalculated my macros on myfitnesspal and also lowered my calories a bit from what I got on the IIFYM website. I'm going to try it for a week and see how it goes.
I know that once I get clean I will feel better, but right now I feel awful. Mentally and physically. I'm really struggling with EVERYTHING right now and I hate that feeling. Please pray that I can get through these next few days of detox.
Monday, December 2, 2013
Monday, November 25, 2013
I LOVE them.
The problem I've had with green tea (or tea in general) is the taste. The purpose of wanting to cut down on coffee (for me) is to get away from artificial sweeteners (or sweeteners in general). But I found that I needed to add SOMETHING to the teas I tried to stomach it. Well, this tea is different. They actually taste good with nothing extra added to it. You can drink them hot, or you can even pop a tea bag into your cold water bottle or cup. I've done both and prefer mine hot, but you can have it either way!
There are four different flavors...
I like them all. My favorite is peach vanilla, but I also like the mixed berry and cranberry ginger.
The great thing about these teas is the ingredients. It's really what sold me on trying the product...
This tea actually acts like an appetite suppressant. When I was doing the smoothie fast, this was actually how I made it through, especially during the day when I was at school and the cravings were bad. I actually have already recommended it to people.
So this week, the SlimME tea is actually part of my "don't go crazy on Thanksgiving" plan. I'm packing my tea and taking it to Missouri with me when I go see my family on Wednesday. This tea will hopefully help keep me in control. This tea also helps me with belly bloat (probably the dandelion and juniper?), too. I'm on my fourth cup today trying to detox from bad eating over the weekend (my daughters birthday... I had cake...).
Zhena's would like to offer THREE of my readers a chance to try this tea, too! Here's how to win:
1. Follow Zhena's on Twitter (@ZHENASSlimMe)
2. Follow ME on Twitter (@SkinnyHollie)
3. Scroll down, and re-tweet "Thanks to @ZhenasSlimME, #Thanksgiving is now Guilt-Free!"
That's it! I'll randomly choose three winners on Friday, November 29 from the re-tweets!
Saturday, November 9, 2013
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Sunday, September 22, 2013
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
Sunday, September 8, 2013
Please send me an email to skinnyhollie at gmail dot com, or send me a message via my SkinnyHollie Facebook page so I can mail your book asap!
Thank you to everyone who paricipated! I'll have more books up for grabs in the next day or so!
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Sunday, September 1, 2013
Saturday, August 31, 2013
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Sunday, August 25, 2013
Saturday, August 24, 2013
Monday, June 3, 2013
It all started in May, where my life got super crazy. I'm a teacher, so the end of a school year can be a bear. So many activities, so much stress. AND I started celebrating my birthday way too early. But I figured that letting loose and enjoying food was okay. This is a lifestyle, right? I was a very good girl during the Christmas holiday, so why can't I enjoy myself during my favorite month of the year (May)?
Well, I had a blast. I had a delicious birthday cake. I had wine and Mexican food. I even ate hot, spicy, greasy fried chicken. And it was good. Very good.
But now, I'm having a hard time getting back on track. My intentions are good, but I'm still having too many cheats. Chips here and there. And sweet stuff. This weekend was awful. I don't even want to admit to how out of control I was. But it really reminded me of the "old" Hollie.
So before I start to undo all of my hard work, it's time to get strict for a while. I'm challenging myself again. It's called the "Perfect 10 Challenge." Ten days of strict, disciplined eating and exercise.
1. No sugar/sweets (except fruit)
2. No white flour/potatoes
3. Eat as clean as possible
4. Drink at least 100 oz. of water daily
5. High protein
6. Low carbs (I like to stay under 100g)
7. 3+ miles of walking daily
8. Weights every other day (working on upper body right now)
9. Daily devotional time.
10. No salty snacks!
I need to get back to the basics, and this is how I am going to do it. The habits are already there... I just need to detox from all this junk I've been eating. My goals for the summer are too important to me to mess up now.
This weekend, I was able to go shopping with a giftcard I got for my birthday. I was able to walk out of Gap and Old Navy (two of my favorite stores) with cute sundresses in size XL. This might not seem like a big deal to you, but it's HUGE for me. On Thanksgiving, I had to buy size 26/28W clothes from Lane Bryant because I was busting out of my 24W's. So to be able to go in a "regular" store and get an XL because the XXL's were too big... that was an awesome feeling. I've never in my adult life been able to wear a size L... and that's the NEXT SIZE DOWN!
I can't mess up now. I won't do it. 10 days from now I'll be back on track and moving FORWARD on this journey. Join me!
Friday, May 31, 2013
Someone on Facebook asked me for a scale pic the other day. Even though I thought the request was kind of strange (maybe even rude), I didn't mind posting one. 52.3 lbs lost total since mid-November. I'm happy with that, but definitely aware that I have a lot more to lose. Today's number is up a little from last week, about 2 lbs. But I ate a lot of bad food over my birthday/Memorial day weekend. But since I've been on track this week, I know this number will eventually go down. Sooner than later. Because I'm busting my ass.
This is my first week of "official" training for my 3-day walk. I've really put some miles in for the last four days. AND I started weight training (which I don't love).
Monday, May 27, 2013
Oh, here's a picture of my glorious cake. Yes, I allowed myself cake for my birthday. But it had to be a specially made cake that I know would be worth every bite. And it was!
My ex-husband's sister came in from Florida for the weekend, which was great. I really enjoy still having a relationship with his family.
I am officially on Summer Break! I am so excited for this time off. I am dedicating this summer to my health and fitness. I'm really planning on getting back to stricter eating and exercise.
My size 20's are getting loose already, so I've made a goal to be in a size 16 by the time that school starts back at the end of July. I really think I can make it.
And I hope you noticed that I set a size goal instead of a scale goal. My 21-day challenge really helped my weight start dropping again. Last week I was down to 264. Weekend/birthday/holiday eating has most likely brought that up a few pounds, but I'm not worried about it. I'm so ready to kick it back into gear, I know that I will be moving downward again in no time.
I have also decided to start more serious weight training this summer, so I am hoping to lose more inches now. The scale will no longer be my only indicator of success (but I've really let that scale obsession go over the last few weeks anyway). I want to be a size 16 in two months. I know I can do it. And it starts NOW!
Sunday, April 21, 2013
Sunday, April 7, 2013
If I ask myself, "Am I doing everything possible to break this plateau?", the answer is "NO."
Most days, I do great. But I fell off the wagon during vacation. Then I fell off again on Easter. And then I fell off AGAIN this weekend. I've been able to maintain my lowest weight of 276.6 through all of this, but I'm ready to get OUT of the 270's. So to do that, I'm going to have to buckle down.
I know what to do. I just have to DO it.
I'm drinking too much. I'm cheating too much. I'm letting other issues in my life take front seat, when my journey to health is so much more important. So I'm going to prioritize. I'm going to really TRY.
And I encourage YOU to join me!
In other breaking news...
I signed up a couple of weeks ago to do the Susan Komen 3-day walk in Atlanta.
If I did it right, you should be able to click a button on the right side of my blog to donate. Please donate! Even if it's just $5, it will help me reach my goal of $2300. My best friend, Brooke, and I will do this in October. It's been on our bucket list for a few years, and so this year we decided to JUST DO IT! I'd love to hear from anyone who has done it, or has fundraising or team advice. Thanks!
Sunday, March 24, 2013
This is the first time I have ever went on vacation and really TRIED to stick to a strict plan of eating. At times, I feel like I started obsessing. At times, it really stressed me out. But overall, I think I did ok. The first night I had soul food from a famous place in Atlanta (Mary Mac's Tea Room). The next day I picked at Chinese food (but it was horrible and not worth it). The third day we at dinner at a buffet in Tallahassee and I tried to choose lean meat and lots of veggies. But the last full day (in Pensacola) was where things went downhill.
I was able to cook breakfast at my sis-in-law's that morning, and between the drive to Pensacola and the beach and shopping, it was 9:30 p.m. before we had dinner. Other than a few snacks while driving to the beach early in the day, I hadn't eat. So I was hungry. And tired. And cranky. And my kids were on my nerves.
So I ordered a chicken pot pie and sweet potato fries from O'Charley's. And I convinced myself that it was the last night of vacation and I deserved it. And I enjoyed it SO much.
But the next morning I got up and at the leftovers for breakfast. And then proceeded to eat two blueberry muffins from the hotel's continental breakfast bar... Don't even ask me why I did that. I don't know why I lost my sanity. Muffins???? Where in the hell are they on my plan?
So on the way home, I was damned near emotional about the muffins. So at a stop at McDonald's for some coffee and fast food for the kids, I ordered a BIG MAC. Yes, you read that right. A BIG MAC. (And it was just as good as I knew it would be.)
I knew my day had officially gone to hell. And I began to panic.
What did this mean? Am I off the wagon? Am I out of control? Will I be able to get control back? Oh, God... please help me. I can not fail this time. I HAVE to get back on track.
So after the 7-hour drive home, the kids were chillin' and I read on Facebook that a good friend of mine was at our local Chili's having a 'rita. So I decided to join her. Because a margarita could only make this day better, right?
I had my margarita, but my friend and I also talked about the 60 lbs that she has lost recently, and I was instantly re-inspired to get my butt in gear. I knew that Sunday, March 23, 2013 was just a bump in the road. I knew that I would wake up on today, get back on plan, and keep moving forward.
And that's exactly what has happened.
But the crazy thing, is that when I stepped on the scale this morning (to assess the damage), this is what I saw...
Monday, March 18, 2013
Thursday, March 7, 2013
So my goal for March is to keep pushing through! I'm currently at 278ish, and I REALLY want to break through to the 260's with no plateaus. In 2003, and again in 2009 when I lost considerable weight, I hit a huge plateau at around 270. I don't want that to happen this time, and plan to work my butt off to stay focused on eating and exercise so that won't happen.
My biggest problem right now is that I've relaxed enough that I feel like I'm eating out too much. I make great choices when I eat out (fish, veggies, etc) most of the time, but it's still not as good as if I were cooking or preparing my meals at home. When I first started in December/January, I was scared to death to eat out. Now, I go out to eat all the time. I've also started to indulge in alcohol again (Vodka tonics and/or red wine)... I must also stop that. In my own insane way, I realize I might be trying to self-sabaoge as usual. Just in a different way.
So now I'm putting it out there, so I know my blog and Facebook friends will keep me accountable. I am so appreciative of the network of people that I have that support and encourage me every day. People that I know in real life, and people that I only know online. It's great! And I am thankful!
Monday, February 11, 2013
I am able to appreciate how good these treats must taste without indulging. It's just not worth the risk of un-doing all the hard work I've put in.
As of yesterday, I'm down almost 33 lbs. the weight is still coming off slow, but I've learned to just appreciate the fact it's coming off at all. I'm trying to eat more calories, and most days I do ok. But some days I'm still pretty low. Still working on that.
I've had to work on a recent craving for potato chips, which I've never had an issue with before. And Coke Zero. I only drink water, but I love Coke Zero and have been giving in more lately.
I guess the bottom line is I'm still trying to get a hold on my disordered eating... And it's not all about sugar. It's a mind thing. Totally.
But I've been successful for 10 weeks, and I don't plan in quitting anytime soon!
Friday, February 1, 2013
When I first set out on this "final" leg of my weight loss journey, my goal was to lose 10 lbs per month... so technically I should be really happy with this progress.
But there is a part of me that is, honestly, disappointed.
I know, I know... 10 lbs is great. I'm down a total of 29.4 lbs. The fact that I'm almost 9 weeks sugar-free is great. I'm making good progress. I'm staying focused. I've tracked my food for 45 days in a row. I'm down about 2 sizes. I'm exercising 4 times per week and loving it.
Life is good.
But I think I should be losing more weight.
After my last post, I tried to start eating more calories. It lasted about 3-4 days, then I just slipped right back into low calories. I don't *think* I'm doing it on purpose... it's just that I'm full and satisfied without the extra food. And I'm too busy and stretched out to even WANT TO think about food all the time, especially how to eat MORE. At the end of the night, especially after a good workout, the last thing I want to do is stuff my face.
Today I sat down and crunched a few numbers from My Fitness Pal. Since 12/28/12, I have averaged anywhere between 1026-1080 calories (NET) per day.
Yes, I know. That is REALLY low for someone almost 300 lbs. I think it really is the cause of my slow losses. My carbs range from 22 - 30%, and my protein ranges from 23-30%. I guess my diet is high in fat, being 40-52% (but mostly from eggs, cheese, olive oil and nuts).
All I know is that I have to find more quality, nutritious food. And I'm probably going to have to eat more often during the day, which will be a challenge in a busy classroom environment. I need more protein and less fat. I think my carbs are good, since I'm exercising and since they come from fruit and veggies.
I've been having so much fun doing group classes at the gym. Zumba, piloxing, kickboxing, hip-hop dance... Monday through Thursday for two weeks straight I've been going, and getting awesome calorie burns each time. My daughter and her bff have been my workout buddies, which gives me added incentive and accountability. Funny how it's possible to make time when one of my children is involved.
I hope everyone has a great weekend.
And I promise to get another book up soon to give away! I haven't forgot about that.
Monday, January 21, 2013
My personal life is still kind of wacky right now. On top of one of my kids having the flu last week, and another having a bad cold-type virus, I missed a lot of work. My ex-husband is making terrible choices with his life...which affects me because I'm no longer receiving financial support, or ANY damned support for my children. And my kids are sad. Which makes me pissed off.... But anyway. Those are his choices...
I'm still making the choice to be the best Hollie I can be. No excuses. I know I can be enough for me and my children. My world revolves around them, and now I have even more incentive to keep pushing forward with positive changes in my life. This is my year. Making myself better will make my kids have a better mom, my students have a better teacher, and my friends will have a better friend.
The possibilities for my future are suddenly amazing. I'm so excited to live life now. I'm definitely changing from the inside out. I finally love ME!