On Friday, I got a treat. I received an email from my friend, Yvette, who lives out in California. I met Yvette about 2 years ago through this blog. Long story short, her encouragement and advice helped me lose over 40 lbs. by eating clean and cutting sugar and caffeine from my diet. Somewhere along the lines, I slipped an fell off the wagon, and have since gained all that weight back. Yvette and I haven't talked in about a year... life got crazy for both of us. But just talking to her the other day gave me such a lift! It took me back and reminded me of how that process felt exactly 2 years ago.
One thing that she said stuck in my mind all weekend. She told me that I was going to have to truly detox from sugar again. She acknowledged how hard it was, but reminded me that for ME, it's necessary.
I thought a lot this weekend about sugar and my addiction to it. I know I'm out of control again, and that's why sticking to ANY eating plan is so hard for me right now.
So yesterday, I decided to try to detox. Again. And today, I have been sugar free.
Now, sugar-free isn't necessarily carb free, for me at least. Sugar free is no added sugar, and decreased use of artificial sweetener. Fruit is allowed. Basically, I try to check the label and make sure that what I eat has 5g or less of sugar. I am also trying to eat every 3 - 4 hours so that I can keep my blood sugar in check and hopefully not be so hungry.
Today I had cravings, but no real hunger. It's a mind thing. I want it, but today, I was able to reason with myself that I couldn't fail on my first day. I made good choices with my food, too.
Tomorrow I will also try my hardest. I'll let you know how it goes. I know this isn't going to be easy.