Monday, October 18, 2010

Need vs. Want

I hate that my updates have dropped to once per month... I always vowed not to be that blogger. I apologize.

A lot has happened in past month - as usual.

I now have custody of my nephew. And it's not temporary. Long story short, he is staying - for now. And I know everything will be okay. I love him, and want him to be happy. Everything is working out with him here. It just seems natural.

My mom's condition is about the same... maybe even a little better. Her neurologist added a med and it seems to be really helping her memory. There is still a lot of drama with two of my sisters, but oh well.

I am now a minivan driving momma. Four kids and a small, old car just wasn't working out. Getting that van may be an extra bill, but it has already decreased my stress level on school mornings! lol...

Big news... I have to have a hysterectomy. I have been dealing with abdominal pain for years. It keeps getting worse and worse, so I finally went to see a doctor. I know I have a ovarian cyst, but this doc fears endometriosis. I read up on it, and have ALL the symptoms. I have an ultrasound in a week that should confirm. With the pain getting drastically worse, the doctor thinks a hysterectomy is my best bet. Since taking 4 - 6 weeks off during the school year is not an option, I guess we will try to manage the pain until summer and do the surgery then.

My doctor also had the "weight" talk with me. She says that losing weight before this surgery is a MUST, and I agree. Weight loss is now a NEED. It can be the difference between a successful surgery and recovery or a lot of issues that I don't need or want. I now have FOUR kiddos that depend on me for EVERYTHING. I have to buckle down and start taking care of myself. Again.

For the past week or so I think I have been wrapping my mind around "trying" again. I haven't been trying... just basically eating what I want with no rules. No exercise (well, a little). We went on vacation last week to Myrtle Beach, SC and it was glorious. During the 9 - 10 hour drive there and back, I thought a LOT about the changes I have to make. I KNOW it is going to be a lot of hard work. But I also know I have to do it.

It's time to get selfish again. I need to make time for me. Get back into the gym. Pack my lunches. Control my portions. Drink my water.

Today was our first day back to school from Fall Break and I am so exhausted. But I made a goal for this week to get my water intake back to 100 oz. per day. Baby steps, right? I have done will with food today, too... but not perfect. A cabinet rehaul is in order, but I have to get through the groceries I have first. But as fast as these kids clear out a pantry, I'm thinking I should be able to make a Trader Joe's run by Saturday.

Also, we are definitely going back to the gym this week. My nephew has been begging to go, and now my daughter is on board. They are both 13 and apparently working out is popular with the kids at school. He wants to bulk up, and my daughter wants to get in shape to try out for cheerleading next year. I think their goals are awesome, especially since they both want to eat healthy, too. I think having two little partners in my house is going to help me tremendously this time around.

Until next time!


  1. Wow, Skinny Hollie theres is a lot on your plate right now, some congratulatory,and some that you need to pay attention for the future surgery.

    To that end, you had been doing so well on the weight loss thing. I dont imagine it will be a problem for you to get surgery ready.

    Wishing you the very best for your weight loss journey.

    Keep coming up with the exciting good posts. Also, Hollie your amazing, how do you generate sooo many followers on Blogger and other ways? Just curious.

    Very best to you, sincerely Trevor Philbrook

  2. Yep..those partners will help!

  3. Hi Hollie,

    It can be quite challenging to lose weight. Especially for those on the go. I gained over 70 pounds with both of my two daughters. I have lost most of the weight..only 15 pounds left to go. I don't do any dieting. Just nutrition, consistent activity, and weightloss challenges.

    I'm cheering you on Hollie! You can do it!!

    To Your Fitness Success,
    Roshanda Gilmore

  4. Ooooh! I am so happy to see a post from you! I was wondering how you are. I'm sorry you're having pain and facing surgery. I know you'll get through. You are one tough lady! The gym with two 13 year olds sounds like fun. Enjoy :)

  5. I have endometriosis, which I control using hormone therapy that shut down my ovaries. That caused my weight gain (50lbs) which I am now trying to lose. It is a very difficult disease to live with, and the therapy doesn't make things much better. Many doctors suggest having your first child as a way to "cure" it, but it sounds like that didn't work for you. I'm hoping that when that day comes, it will work for me, but everyone is different I suppose. I hope everything works out and I wish you the very best of luck! If you need a weight loss buddy, I blog about it too!

  6. Hey Hollie!

    I live in Nashville too. If you ever want to chat, look me up on Face Book.
    KarenNichelle 360

  7. Hey Hollie. Is there possibly some research on how certain foods may affect your current condition - good or bad?

    I'm such a stickler for how our diet affects our body. And after the hysterectomy, I encourage you to research natural ways to maintain hormonal balance. Gosh, now I sound like a hippie.


  8. Take caution with a 13 year-old boy wanting to "bulk up". This is actually a good time for him to learn exercise fundamentals and basics. Reinforce good exercise form and proper technique for them both.

    As for you, you do want to be ahead of the game for that surgery since the recover is usually 2-3 weeks of completely inactive time.

    Be selfish, make the time, prepare the meals. It will be worth it!

  9. Wow, lots going on with you girl. But it sounds like you are adjusting and dealing. I know you and the kids will have fun at the gym.

    I have had so much trouble with painful periods. Now, at age 53, NO MORE periods! Yay! I hope the doc has good news for you.


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