Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Whew... made it!

Summer school (that I'm teaching) is o-v-e-r! Whew... I made it through alive! You could have never told me that four days a week, three hours a day, for one month, would be such a task! I am mentally DRAINED. I think the added stress of my own summer classes made it a lot worse. These are the two HARDEST classes I've ever taken... and both at the same time! I'm dying over here!

BUT... I see the light! At least now, I have a month off (minus a few teacher in-service days) before school starts back. I finally get to start working on my new classroom! Yay!

So, usually when bloggers disappear... like I have... it is because they are not doing so well on the weight-loss front.

Guess what?

I am doing better than I have in a while! I am binge-free. I am back in gym for over an hour every day and am "feeling" progress. Honestly, my muscles are so damned sore I am convinced my body hates me! But I am not quitting!

My no-sugar June was an epic FAIL. Sorry... I tried. And I have cut WAY back. And I am still shooting for this goal in July.

I feel like I am slowly getting back to putting ME at the top of my priority list. For a while, I was so overwhelmed that I could feel myself sinking into depression again. There was just SO MUCH that I felt like I was fighting a losing battle. Besides work, school, and parenting, so much emotional shit keeps coming up and I just can't deal. My ex is back in jail, and that is just devastating to my kids. They were just getting used to having him again.

But something, somehow, just "clicked" and I decided that I just needed to snap the hell out of it! I was not going to just lay down and let failure win! So that's when I hit the gym (and we all know what exercise can do for your mood).

I am done with the scale for a while. I just don't need the mind games right now. I am eating healthy food, I have cut down sugar drastically, and I am doing at least an hour of cardio/strength training 6 days a week. If I keep it up, I will lose weight and get healthy. I don't care what the damned scale says right now!

Ok.... Right now, I have almost 700 blogs waiting in my Google reader... but I am determined to catch up!

It's good to be back!


  1. Woo Hoo for you Hollie.. for getting with it and not letting the blues get ya!! Way to go working out and getting your butt in gear! I like how you find your weakness (like obsessing over the scale) and NOT let it rule you. You are a strong woman!! :)

    I hope you enjoy your little "break" before school starts up again. :) And good luck catching up on all those blogs... whew!


  2. QUOTE:
    " I am eating healthy food, I have cut down sugar drastically, and I am doing at least an hour of cardio/strength training 6 days a week. If I keep it up, I will lose weight and get healthy."

    That should work. Best wishes to you.

  3. You are doing great. I pray to get there one day. You are an inspiration for me. I have well over 150 pounds to lose. But reading you blogs shows me that it is possible. Keep up the good work.

    Enjoy your break!!!!

  4. Yeah for you!!! Sounds like you are doing great and staying positive.

  5. Is that your gym? Holy smokes that's huge! And high-tech machines! *jealous*

  6. I don't know how you do kids and work and school much less exercise.

  7. Great job on not letting it get to you! You've cut down on sugar drastically and that ALONE is a huge thing!

  8. I agree on the exercise front! Can do wonders for your mood. :)

  9. That's great!!! I hope I can do more exercise and eat healthier foods with the right amount. I'm getting some fats already and i hate the love handles now. I want a good strategy to weight lose... :)

  10. Way to go on the exercising. Keep up the good work! That looks like a nice huge gym. If you have time, you can visit me at my weight loss blog at Everyday Life's Issues

  11. Great news - well done. Pushing through and getting to the "other" side is a major accomplishment.
    Less of Me

  12. Girl...
    It sounds like you are doing so well!!! Keep the good work up! By the way, I love that you posted the picture of my gym!! I thought, Hollie goes to Pivotal too!!!" Wait a minute....:)

  13. Great blog! thank you for sharing!

  14. YAY for summer school being over! And being on track with food and exercise. Your gym looks amazing with the personal tvs. . . I'm a little jealous :)

  15. Wow! I just found your blog and am truly inspired!! I'm on week 2 of my liftstyle change..eating habits and working out...and hope to lose around 115 poounds!! Thank for sharing your story!!

  16. Shifting calories is not very easy but it takes time and patience. setting goals for your health is a good way to make sure you get there. I have learned something from you today thakns. I hope you have fun during your break.

  17. I think it's so great that you are not worrying about what the scale says and are concentrating more being healthy! Eating food that is nutritious and exercising regularly are a great way to naturally lose weight. It's a slow process, but it's effective!

    Good luck :)

  18. Fair play girl! Sounds like you're fighting your way out of trouble.
    Can't help feeling that the need to cut out sugar will make you want it more in the long term. I only say this because every time I try and 'go without' I feel like I'm punishing myself (like grounding myself!) and then I rebel against it. Like part of me is my Mom and the other part is me as a child. I dunno...
    Anyway more power to you!

  19. Hey Hollie

    I see you haven't posted for a few weeks. Hows it going?
    I have recently started my own blog for my journey - we could motivate each other?

    Hope to hear from you soon

  20. That's great Hollie, it's important to really take care of our health and our bodies, as they will definitely take care of us later. I am on this also, cheering you on. I have lost over 15 pounds just from eating healthily, cutting down on alcohol and exercising. i still have a couple of pounds to lose . . . the fight continues. giving up is just not an option!

  21. Sorry to hear about your ex but you know what? Your kids have an excellent role model in you. Hold that dear.

    I really enjoyed reading your blog and I've added you on twitter. Can't wait to hear more about your progress.


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