Saturday, January 30, 2010

Snow days and Inspiring people :}

This is how my front yard looked when I woke up this morning! Middle TN is covered in snow - the most snow I've seen in this area for a long time. It started snowing yesterday and was pretty mushy and wet, but accumulated enough to play in at the end of the day. The kids and I had a blast playing and throwing snow balls after I got back from the gym yesterday. Yes... I actually went to the gym when it was SNOWING outside - no excuses, right?
While I was at the gym yesterday, I was really inspired. While I was on the elliptical, an elderly couple came in and got on the recumbent bikes (the ones you sit in). They were both very short (around 5'1" - 5'3"), and very over weight. They both struggled with the bikes, but I was really inspired that they were at least TRYING. But the story doesn't end there...

When I moved over to the weight machines, I noticed they were also over there lifting weights! They would help each other on and off the machines, do as many reps as they could, and were working so hard! My mother came to mind (who is 5'1" and 300+ lbs and 75 yrs old), and I could only just wish that she had that same will. When I was done, I noticed the couple was struggling while trying to adjust one of the machines, so I went over to help them. I told the woman how I wish my mom would follow in her footsteps, and then she told me her story. How she used to be 350+ lbs, how she had to go through countless surgeries because of health issues associated with weight, and about how during her last surgery she died on the operating table. She was gone for 14 minutes! She said it was at that point she decided to take charge of her life.

She started off by walking to the end of her driveway (pushing her wheelchair). Then she started walking further and further until she could make it around the indoor track at the gym one time. Now she is trying to strengthen and tone. She has lost 100 lbs so far and says she will not give up! She has changed her diet, too, and now has got her husband on board with both diet and exercise. Honestly, I was so inspired by this woman I almost started crying! How can I ever complain about being tired, or not "feeling like" it, when this woman at her age and with her medical issues can do it?

A wonderful friend of mine always says, "It's never too late to become what you could have been." (Sorry, Ron, if I mis-quoted this!) You get the idea. Never give up!

I am very pleased that even though I've been stuck in the house today, I have stayed OP! Look at this delicious lunch!
SO YUMMY! I have a new recipe planned for dinner tonight... I will post if it turns out as good as I think it will! Oh, and guess what? My gym is CLOSED today due to weather! It was actually shutting down early yesterday when I was there, so I am glad I got there in time. I think the kiddos and I will have a Wii tournament this afternoon, which should burn plenty of calories and be a lot of fun!

Friday, January 29, 2010

Beautiful Blogger, gym love, and water!

First things first! Rockin' Robin over at A Year's Weight... awarded me the Beautiful Blogger award. Thanks! Since I just rec'd it a little while back, I am not going to re-post seven things about me, and as usual, I will not post seven favorite blogs. Please see my blogroll for favorites!

Sorry I've been "absent" for a couple of days... just been busy! I have still been on plan, though! And the scale is finally showing me love! I have been in the gym every day! Last night I had class, and after I got home and had dinner, I was sitting on the couch and just "had to" to exercise! Even though I had given myself to take Thursday's off because of my night class, I threw on my gym clothes for a 45 minute workout before the gym closed. I think this exercise thing is finally starting to be a habit, and I don't want to lose my momentum.

It is snowing again in Tennessee, and we have a snow day today! I had a HUGE breakfast/brunch (didn't eat until around 11 a.m. because I slept in). Omelet with bell peppers, spinach and reduced-fat cheese and a whole grain bagel (9 g. fiber). I just balanced my checkbook and am getting ready to venture out in the snow to pay some bills. Then I am gonna hit the gym for about an hour.


Someone made a comment the other day about how much water I drink. Every day, I drink between 120 to 160+ ounces of water. I have found that since I've started going to the gym again, I am much thirstier and am drinking more water. And I would also like to note that I ONLY drink water. No juice, coffee, tea, soda, milk... only water. So, I was reading an article the other day and there was a link to a calculator that will show you exactly how much water you're supposed to drink.

It says I am supposed to be drinking 146 ounces of water each day, or 4.4 liters. On days with no exercise, 143 ounces of water, or 4.3 liters. If you eat a healthy diet, about 20 percent of water may come from the foods you eat. If I eat a healthy diet I can drink 116.8 ounces of water, or 3.5 liters. So, I think I am definitely not drinking too much water!

Check it out!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

New recipe tonight!

Tonight I tried a new recipe, and it was AWESOME! Turkey burgers with feta cheese and spinach with a tzatziki sauce, served on an Arnold's Sandwich thin. Had some sweet potato fries, too... what a treat!

Here are the recipes:

Turkey Feta Spinach Burgers

Serves 5

Extra lean ground turkey
4 oz feta cheese
1 1/2 cup chopped spinach
1 egg white
salt to taste
olive oil (optional)

Finely chop fresh spinach, or put in a food processor. Add ground turkey, feta, egg white, and salt to taste. Mix, and separate into 5 patties. These burgers can be grilled on a grill, baked in the oven, or cooked on the stove top with a little olive oil (that's what I did).
  • Calories: 183.4
  • Total Fat: 8.4 g
  • Cholesterol: 64.0 mg
  • Sodium: 356.0 mg
  • Total Carbs: 0.6 g
  • Dietary Fiber: 0.4 g
  • Protein: 26.2 g
Tzatziki Sauce (Greek yogurt and cucumber dip)

2 - 6 oz. containers of Oikos Greek Yogurt (fat free)
1 cucumber (peeled and seeded)
2 cloves crushed garlic
salt to taste

Shred or process cucumber. In coffee filter or paper towel, allow cucumber to sit so excess water can be absorbed and drained away. Then combine cucumber with yogurt and garlic. Allow to sit in refrigerator for at least an hour so flavors can blend.

Number of Servings: 12 (I estimated about an ounce per serving?)
  • Calories: 19.4
  • Total Fat: 0.0 g
  • Cholesterol: 0.0 mg
  • Sodium: 12.1 mg
  • Total Carbs: 1.7 g
  • Dietary Fiber: 0.1 g
  • Protein: 2.8 g
The rest of my day was on plan... drank a lot of water! About 160 ounces... I just seem really thirsty lately... could be because of working out? I went to the gym even though I had a busy evening planned. I decided that I am just as important as my daughter's homecoming game, or getting the house clean. I did 20 minutes on the elliptical and 20 minutes on the stationary bike. You know, that stationary bike is more of a challenge to me than the elliptical! That is why I keep getting on it... I figure that a challenge is good. And I can definitely feel it!

Watching Biggest Loser... getting pissed off at the green team! What a b*tchy pair! Ok... I won't spoil it for those of you who haven't watched yet...:)

Monday, January 25, 2010


Today is all about the numbers! First things first...

I weighed in 5.8 lbs less than last week... which means that stupid gain is gone, and that the scale is finally moving in the right direction!

I also have more than 300 followers on this blog! That is just unbelievable! Knowing that people are with me on this journey keeps me so accountable, and it also lets me know I am not alone on this journey. Thanks!

As I did before, I am allowing Monday (WI day) to be my "high-calorie" day. Not going overboard, but just allowing a few extra calories so I can fit in a treat or a meal I've been wanting. I had some Trader Joe's Mandarin Orange Chicken in the freezer, so today was the day! I'm ending the day at about 1700 calories and 128 ounces of water.

I hit the gym today for a little arm work and 30 minutes on the elliptical.

So there you go! As you can see, it's all about the numbers!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Pullin' it together...

There are times in life where you have to acknowledge you messed up, then just move on. Saturday was not-so-good for me. I stayed within my calories, but did not eat on plan. Actually, Saturday was just thrown off quite a bit and I just had to roll with it. But never, not once, did I just throw in the towel. I just made up my mind that today, I had to pull it together, and I did.

Today was my first successful weekend day that I have been 100% on plan! I just woke up with the resolve to do it, and I did! Today I not only ate on plan, but I also did over an hour in the gym. I did 30 minutes on the stationary bike, and 30 minutes on the elliptical. I even walked/ran on the treadmill for 6 minutes until the elliptical was free. I didn't do weights today because it was just PACKED in there! All the machines had a wait list.

I've had 1500 calories today and 120 oz of water. estimates I burned about 1000 calories, but we all know that may or may not be accurate. Hopefully the scale will be nice to me in the morning...

Friday, January 22, 2010

Back in the GYM!

I went to the gym tonight... had a great workout! 30 minutes on the elliptical and 15- 20 minutes of weights (upper body). I felt so freakin' good when I was done! I just wish I knew how many calories I am burning... I need a heart rate monitor. The elliptical machine said I burned 400 calories, but (where I log my food/exercise), estimated it at about 600 calories. I will go with the lower number to be safe.

My daughter is having a sleepover tonight, and I bought frozen pizzas for them. Even though I had chicken baking in the over, I had some of the pizza because I was STARVING after my workout. Oh, well. I logged the calories and I am moving on. I mean, I am still within my daily calories, but I know this isn't the best choice. I could have had a lot more food if it was good stuff and a lot of veggies (like my usual dinners). But the good thing is that it was good, and therefore worth it!

See, that goes back to my 80/20 rule. I know I am finally being conscious about what I am eating because I actually dug the box out of the trash so I could see the calorie count of the pizza BEFORE I ate it. I thought about the choice first, then I made it. Instead of eating the whole thing and crying about it later, I rationalized it FIRST. That is progress. This is real life, and I know there are going to be times I am not 100% on plan.

I went to the grocery tonight and stood by a whole barrel of CADBURY eggs while waiting in line, and didn't cave in! Now that is so hard! Those damned eggs are like CRACK to me. But I will resist!

My plan for this weekend is to spend at least an hour in the gym each day, and to continue to eat clean and be accountable!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Hello, gym...remember me?

My gym membership expired back in December, and honestly, it was just NOT in my single-mom-of-three-receiving-no-child-support-and-barely-getting-by budget to renew. I have been STRUGGLING to work out at home - I am just not motivated. I can find too many things I need to do, and too many excuses NOT to do it. I love going to the gym - it's the only "me" time I can get right now.

Yesterday, Brooke called me and said that she had heard from someone else that used to go to my university that there was a workout facility on campus. Upon further investigation, I found out that there is not a workout facility, but that the university students used our local gym for a "discounted rate". When I called to find out the rate, I found out that I can go for FREE! Yes, I said FREE for this semester. Apparently undergrad students go free (because they pay an activity fee to the university) each semester, and grad students pay $65 per semester. I take both undergrad AND grad classes. This summer (and until I graduate) I will just have to pay $65, which is a deal! I am SO EXCITED!

SO... today while I was on campus for class, I went by and got everything hooked up. I can start going tomorrow. Adding exercise that I like is going to be so good for my weight loss. Yeah, Jillian might be a great workout, but I HATE it. And I just don't think working the same muscles every day is a good idea. This weekend I was in pain, and now my back has been hurting. I am so sore, I know my form is off when I am doing lunges and other moves. Yeah... I can't wait to get back to the gym!

Eating has been 100% on plan. Yesterday I was right around 1500 calories, and today will end at 1400. No sugar or artificial sweetener, no caffeine (6 days with no coffee). Eating clean with lots of fruits and veggies. I have been drinking 120+ oz of water daily, and also taking all of my supplements daily. I am feeling really good! I know that if I stick with it that the scale will eventually move. I am going to take someone's suggestion and take my measurements. I HATE taking measurements, lol.

Ok... I am off to bed! I had a friend over last night and only had about 3 hours of sleep last night. It was worth it, though.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Love/hate that SCALE!

Last week, I jumped on the scale on Monday morning to find that I had not lost a thing! Now, I know that I had only been about 80% on plan, but was still disappointed to see no loss at all. Even at 80%, it was still 100% better than what I had been doing! I felt really down about it, but was determined to push on. I added exercise last week, and logged my food every day. As you can see from my last post, I felt really good about myself. I am finally back on track…

Yesterday, I got on the scale…excited to see a loss because I know I have been on plan all week. My pants are already a little looser, so I was ready! Guess what? It showed a 5 POUND GAIN! What???? I was shocked, and so frustrated!!! So, I spent yesterday mentally evaluating what it is that I am doing wrong… what am I doing NOW that is different from this spring when I was losing? A few things stuck out…

1. Drinking coffee – last spring it TOTALLY cut out coffee. As of today, I am 4 days coffee-free! There was even a pot brewed in the classroom and I didn’t have any.
2. Artificial sweeteners – I know I drank a LOT of Crystal Lite last week because the water from the fountain at work tastes like toilet water. Starting yesterday, I am no longer using Crystal Lite – plain water only.
3. Calories too high? – Not sure about this one… I averaged about 1600 - 1900 calories (before exercise) last week. This week I am going to try to stay between 1200 – 1400.

I am not sure what is going on, but it is so frustrating. I am actually trying! But it also scares me… what if my body is not going to cooperate this time? What if I am now one of those people who can’t lose weight no matter what they do?

I promised my friend last week that I would throw out my scale, since it has the ability to really bring me down and affect my mood. But for whatever reason, I didn’t, and now I’m glad I didn’t. If I hadn’t weighed-in yesterday, I would have no idea that I was doing something wrong. I would have took for granted that clean eating, exercise, eliminating “real” sugar, and taking my supplements was enough. Obviously, its not.

Yesterday was as near perfect as I think I can get. I ended the day with a little over 1400 calories and drank 144 ounces of clear water. No coffee, no sugar, all of my supplements. No exercise, though… just didn’t feel like it. I got on the scale this morning, and 3.6 of the 5 lb gain was gone (thank GOD). I am going to watch the scale this week – so I can get an idea of what is working and what isn’t. I hate that damned scale, but it might just help me right now.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Another Blog Award!!!!

I have been awarded a new blog award from TWO different people! Suzi from Spunkisuzi Working Towards a Healthier Me and Phil from So You Say You Want a Resolution have both decided they like my blog enough to give me this award. Thanks!

The instructions that come along with this award are as follows:

1. Copy the image and display it on your blog.
2. List 10 things that make you happy.
3. Try to do at least one of them today.
4. Pass on the award to 10 bloggers who brighten your day.

All of the blogs on my blogroll brighten my day… those of you who know me know I can’t pick just 10! Please read all of them!

Ten things that make me happy…..

1. Listening to my children laugh
2. Finding a good deal
3. Making someone’s day
4. Helping a student find that “aha!” moment
5. Earning A’s in school
6. Paying my bills on time
7. Losing weight
8. Shopping for smaller clothes
9. Great sex
10. Spending time with my nephews

Monday, January 18, 2010

Weekend Update - 80/20

I am pleased to report that this weekend went off without a hitch! As we all know, weekends are usually a time that people struggle to stay on their eating plan... This weekend, I was kinda nervous because I had made plans to go out. Now, we all know that going out and partying too much is 80% of the reason for my re-gain. I really wanted to make sure that a night of going out with friends would NOT cause me to fall of the wagon. And it wasn't!

Friday night I went to a house-party and snacked on the fresh fruit and veggie tray. I did drink when we went out later, but only straight liquor shots (no sugary mixer), and not enough to get tipsy. The next morning I immediately started drinking water and had a protein bar that was packed in my purse (I didn't spend the night at home). Later in the morning, I DID have a cup of coffee - only 5 hours of sleep and a headache... you get the picture. The rest of the day was spent running around, but I kept the food as good as possible and really watched my calorie intake.

Yesterday was semi-normal day - I just slept a lot, so that made my eating schedule a little wacky. Today was another wacky day, because my son had a doctor's appointment that lasted pretty much all day. I grabbed a Subway on the way out of the hospital and felt good about it. I was close to Trader Joe's, so I popped in and re-stocked on veggies and supplements. I have already packaged my supplements tomorrow, and will go pack lunch shortly.

The only thing really missing from this weekend is exercise... Being away from home just made it inconvenient. But the thing I was so proud of is that I am finally AWARE of what I am eating. I am finally making good CHOICES. Never, not once, did I think, "well, I'll just start over tomorrow...". NO. I will continue to do well, no matter how busy I am or what curves my life has ahead. This is a lifestyle change.

I was talking to a friend the other day about the "80/20" rule. Basically, that just means that by being aware of what you eat 80% of the time will make such a difference in your health and weight-loss. I believe that my biggest obstacle is just making sure that I am paying attention to what I eat, and actually TRYING to make the right choice. This weekend I feel like I was successful. Not perfect, but successful at doing my best at putting good food into my body, and making choices that will allow me to reach my weight-loss goals!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Final check-in (from last night)

(I actually typed this out last night, and THOUGHT I posted it, lol)

Workout - YES! Day 4 of the Last Chance Workout = still brutal!

Calories - 1550 total

Water - 130 ounces so far (still sipping though...)

After reading the Fat Flush book today, I decided that the coffee has to go!!! Even with sugar free creamer, I am wasting about 100 calories a day on that crap, and my body doesn't need it right now while I am trying to lose. I figure I can get over it and feel crappy this weekend, lol.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Beautiful Blogger?

Me??? Well, someone thinks so!

I was honored to be awarded the Beautiful Blogger award from Purple Moonflower at

It's Not a Diet, It's a Weigh of Life...

I am supposed to pass it on to seven other Beautiful Bloggers and list seven facts about myself that you don't already know (well, maybe you do). The seven bloggers then have to repeat the cycle with their own lists, nominations, etc. Well... I am not going to follow the rules here! I just CAN'T pick 7 blogs... I have too many that I love! It would be unfair! Soooo..... please see my blogroll. If you're on there, I LOVE YOU! If you're not... let me know who you are in my comments! I love finding new blogs to read.

But I will list the 7 facts. Enjoy!

Seven facts about me:

1. I secretly love the song “Party in the USA” by Miley Cirus.
2. I absolutely refuse to wear “granny panties” and can't wait until my ass is small enough for a thong.
3. I am attracted to older men.
4. I have a notebook filled with Bruce Springsting lyrics.
5. I cheated on a test in the 7th grade.
6. I am insanely in love with Donnie Osmond.
7. I have no doubt I will reach my weight loss goal this year!

Supplements and Fat Flush For Life

Back in December, I posted the list of supplements I take daily when I am on plan. Many have asked in my blog comments for me to list them again, so here you go:

Calcium and Magnesium +D - helps with withdrawal headaches, plus vitamin D helps with mood
Tonalin CLA - reduces the body's ability to deposit fat and promotes the use of stored fat for energy
Flaxseed Oil - Contains Omega-3 fats, which raise your metabolism, help flush water from your kidneys and lower your triglyceride levels.
Multi-vitamin for Her - to cover the rest of my bases!
Evening Primrose Oil - The GLA found in evening primrose oil mobilizes the metabolically active fat known as brown adipose tissue (BAT).
Acetyl L-Carnitine 400mg + Alpha Lipoic Acid 200 mg - fat burner
Milk Thistle - a liver regenerator and helps with bile stagnation
AssistU - all natural appetite suppressant (


A few weeks ago I was given the opportunity to receive a free copy of “Fat Flush for Life” by Dr. Ann Louise Gittleman to read and review. The book interested me because it had the word “detox” in the description. I started reading the book today, and was pleasantly surprised to find out the plan that is outlined in the book is identical to the plan I began last April that kick-started my weight-loss. It is actually the basic plan that I follow now, and is the reason I take the supplements daily.

Some of you might remember my friend, Yvette, who lives in CA. She is the friend who changed the way I look at food, and also the friend who formulated the AssistU pill. This spring, she gave me an outline of food to eat and supplements to add to my diet. I had totally forgot she credited this book for most of the plan! She loves this book because she says this is basically the way she has eaten her entire life. Did I mention that she is extremely healthy and has never been overweight?

Basically – here is the basics of Fat Flush (six core commandments):
1. Love your liver (when your liver is clogged with bad stuff, it can’t maintain blood sugar levels or burn fat).
2. Love your lymph (which is the foundation of you immune system and when lazy, can cause cellulite and excess stomach fat)
3. Eat the right fat to lose fat (now you see why I take supplements that add GLA, CLA, and Omega-3’s and 6’s – good fat triggers your body to burn more calories and decrease body fat, as well as making you feel full and more satisfied.)
4. Stress less (and sleep more) for less fat (we ALL should know that stress and lack of sleep makes your body produce too much Cortisol, which creates belly fat…)
5. Lower your insulin to lower your weight (insulin is a fat-promoting hormone…)
6. Recognize false fat (water-logged tissues in your body caused by prescription meds, food allergies, and hormone imbalances)

I am really glad I read this book, because it reminded me of several things I was doing this spring that I need to start back, like the cran-water daily and hot lemon-water in the mornings. It also reminded me of the importance of staying consistent with my supplements, eliminating sugar and caffeine from my diet, and eating as clean as possible. It also recommends a few new things I want to try, like chia seeds. This new book has a detox plan that is specialized for each season – I definitely plan on paying attention to that and trying to incorporate it into my plan.


I am at school now, waiting on my evening class to begin. My mom is watching my kids and just informed me she got them Burger King for dinner.... even though I told her we were banning fast food from the house. I told her there had better not be a TRACE of that stuff in my house when I get home. I'll report on that and my workout later tonight!

What is that you said, Jillian?

Huh? I can't hear you... I have my Ipod on and I am NOT listening!

What a difference great music makes when you work out!!! Last night, I had a great dinner with my besties. And even though I got home late, I immediately did my Day 3 workout before I could talk myself out of it. At the last minute, I got an idea... I put the TV on mute and put on my Ipod. Genius!!! The workout, although still very challenging, was SO MUCH BETTER! I guess the music made my mood better, so the workout passed by pretty fast. This DVD rotates workouts daily, so yesterday's workout was the one I did Monday. I was actually able to tune out Jillian and concentrate more on the moves, even the floor moves that were nearly impossible on Monday. I am still so sore, but in a good way.

Yesterday was about 90% on plan. I nibbled on a small piece of streusel when I was stuck in the teacher's lounge with a student. But I journaled it. I also tried not to have coffee yesterday, but after the stress with a student I had a headache and gave in. Yesterday my calories were around 1600, and I estimate I burned about 500 with the workout. Can't wait until I can get a heart rate monitor so I know for sure how many calories I am burning. I also downed about 130 oz. of water.

Ok... off to work. Just sipped a protein smoothie for breakfast, and my spring mix/baby spinach salad is already packed and ready to go!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I really didn't want to...

...but I did. I worked out for the 2nd day in a row! Yes, you are on the right blog!

I did the 2nd day of the Last Chance Workout and it was just as hard as the first day. Today was upper and lower body toning, which you know also involved aerobics because Jillian Michaels is in charge and she believes in working you until you VOMIT. For real, I almost threw up today, too. And I worked out at least 3 hours after I had dinner!

Today was another 100% on plan day. I journaled all my food and did not stray from my healthy food. I planned a dinner that was a little high in calories (Trader Joe's Mandarin Orange Chicken), but it was worth every single calorie! I made it with whole wheat couscous and broccoli - delicious! I ended the day at about 1700 calories, but I estimate I burned about 500 calories with the exercise. I also drank about 120 oz. of water. It was a great day!

Honestly, I am feeling SO much better. I know that the good food and supplements are a big reason, but knowing that I am finally in control of my eating is an awesome feeling, too. I hate feeling like I am a slave to binges and cravings. I know the AssistU takes the edge off, and that's why I will continue to take it and love it so much. I still have to do the hard work, it just makes it easier to say "no" to the cookies when they're offered to me, lol.

Ok... lunch is already packed for me and my daughter (she requested a salad again!), and I am ready to hit the shower and GO TO BED!

Monday, January 11, 2010

Jillian, Jillian, Jillian...

Yep. Jillian Michaels. Right now, I am so tired! And now I totally understand why so many contestants on the Biggest Loser throw up during their workouts. I TOTALLY just thought I was gonna vomit! I got the two new Biggest Loser DVD's... Last Chance Workout and 30-day Jump Start. The Day 1 of the jump start was only 10 minutes, so I decided to do the Last Chance Workout about an hour or so after dinner. It has a warm up, then about 30 minutes of intervals, then a cool down. IT was HARD!!! Not unrealistically-hard-for-a-fat-person like some of her other stuff, but VERY CHALLENGING. I definitely just got a good at-home workout. I may not be able to move my arms or sit on the toilet tomorrow...

Today I have been 100% on my plan! Protein shake for breakfast, salad w/tuna for lunch, baked chicken, asparagus, and sweet potato fries for dinner. I even logged everything on! I estimated that I ate about 1500 calories, and when I logged my exercise under Circuit Training - general, minimal rest, it said I burned about 500 calories. I don't really care about what I burned at this point, I am just happy that I got moving! That was my big goal for today. My other goal was to eat well and journal, and I did that too! I think I can officially say today was successful!

I have already packed my lunch and supplements for tomorrow, so there should be no reason to slip into bad habits tomorrow. I was pleasantly surprised that my oldest daughter also asked me to make her a salad for lunch. I was more than happy to! One of the main reasons I want to live a healthy lifestyle is for my children. My oldest is overweight, and I have found that when I lose eat right and lose weight, so does she. She is 12, so hopefully I haven't waited to long to show her good eating habits that are consistent.

I am off to take a shower and then I have a feeling I am gonna crash tonight! Exercise always puts me right to sleep!

Saturday, January 9, 2010

LaZyHollie goes to Trader Joe's!

Yes, instead of SkinnyHollie, my name should be temporarily changed to LAZYHOLLIE! The past few days I have been SO LAZY! I guess that's what happens when you combine a mild case of the blues with zero degree temperatures and snow everywhere. Good thing is - the eating has been pretty good! Not perfect, but I am nearly there. After the shopping trip I made today, I should be 100% there tomorrow!

After not leaving the house since Wednesday, I actually ventured out today. Spring classes started today, then after class I went and got my nails done. THEN I drove to Nashville and went grocery shopping at Trader Joe's! Nothing gets me in "healthy grocery" mode like Trader Joe's. It is my favorite grocery store. Since we were out of EVERYTHING, I decided to stock up on good stuff. $168 later, I think I am good to go!

I was supposed to write out a menu yesterday for the week, but I couldn't do it! It was like I had writer's block... I couldn't think of anything that I really WANTED on the menu. I didn't feel like looking at recipes... hell, even the thought of COOKING seemed like a chore. So I didn't do it. But now that I actually have groceries I think I may be able to do it.

Another great thing happened this morning while I was getting my backpack ready for school. I found my food journal from back in April when I first started eating clean, taking supplements, and lost a lot of weight. I was perfectly on plan for MONTHS, and everything I ate is in this food journal. I am SO excited about finding it. Later on, I plan on reading through it for ideas on how I can DUPLICATE that same behavior so I can lose weight now like I did back then. I think I lost 20 lbs the first month? Yeah, now that's what I'm talking about!

Thursday, January 7, 2010


One of the best things about working for the school district is snow days! When the kiddos are out, I a get a PAID DAY OFF! School was closed today for this "big" snow storm we were supposed to get (yeah, right). We only got a dusting of snow, but since I am in Tennessee, and people down here freak out about snow, they decided to cancel school tomorrow, too! So I get a 4-day weekend! YaY!

So... I am using this to my weight-loss advantage! A few more days at home to concentrate on ME will be great! I have found two new DVDs that are DOABLE! They are the two new Biggest Loser workouts (30-day Jumpstart and Last Chance Workout). I am going to do both of them before dinner today - I'll let you know how it goes. I am actually excited!

I have also wrote out my weight loss goals for the rest of the year. I usually don't do this and just go with the flow. But, I really think that if I put my mind, body, and will-power into it, I can reach my goal this year... 155 lbs. 155 lbs will put me at the right BMI so I will no longer be overweight, so that's how I got that number. But who knows, I might get to another higher weight and stop there. Hell, I might go for lower. But for right now, 155 is the goal. Here's how I will get there...

290 lbs - this is what I weighed-in at on Monday (Jan. 4)

260 lbs - 3/5/10 - This is the beginning of our Spring Break. If I meet this goal, I plan on taking a mini-vacation to Florida. Someone has already agreed to sponsor the trip...
229 lbs - 5/26/10 - This is my birthday, and is also the end of the school year. 229 lbs will put me back at the weight I was before I had my youngest daughter - a special number for me.
199 lbs - 7/26/10 - This is the first day back to work for our school district. I am going to think positive, and hope that when I get hired on to teach it will be somewhere in this district, but even if I don't, most schools around here go back on this date. I would LOVE to be in Onederland by then!
185 lbs - LABOR DAY
170 lbs - HALLOWEEN
155 lbs - JANUARY 1, 2011

As you can probably tell, the first three numbers are my biggest goals. The last three are just realistic numbers that can get me to goal by the New YEAR! I WILL start 2011 at MY GOAL WEIGHT (whatever that ends up being). It is totally something I can do. It is definitely something I WILL DO. to exercise, then dinner time!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

I must NOT let my emotions win!

I think it's safe to say that most people who battle with being overweight have had to deal with emotional eating. I know that emotional eating is a big hurdle for me... I eat when I am happy, I eat when I am sad. Food has always been my go-to whenever I am going through something. I have to try so hard to say no... sometimes the urge to eat can be so overwhelming. The hunger pains and the cravings have made me miserable. But if I have learned anything, I have learned that the hunger is not for food. It's always for something else. Food can never fill the emptiness. And I always end up feeling like sh*t after I fill myself up with food when food is not what I am hungry for. It's a vicious cycle.

A few days ago, I got some news about a friend of mine that hurt my heart a little. But over the past few days, it has festered, and along with getting more bad news about that person today, my heart is officially broken about it. After school today, I had planned on meeting Brooke for some "girl time". We had even planned on our girl time revolving around a salad! But when I got home, the furnace repair people were here with bad news... the furnace had to be replaced. Thankfully, I am a renter so the repair was not my tab, but it did mean that I could not go on my "girl date" with Brooke. It also meant I didn't have a plan for dinner. The kids had take-out, but I had nothing! Sooo... while all this is going on, I got "the phone call", and I felt myself spinning out of control... I just wanted to eat something. Being hungry for real didn't help at all!

So... I popped a piece of double-fiber whole wheat bread in the toaster, and spread some reduced fat cream cheese on top. It was quick, and it took the hunger away. I allowed myself a mini-cry session, and now I feel better! I am not over it, but I will be. I am going to make a protein shake in just a bit, then head to the grocery. It is supposed to snow tomorrow, and they have already canceled schools, so I will officially have a day off with my kiddos tomorrow. I need to make sure I have good food and snacks here for all of us.

The best thing about tonight is how I really leaned on my friends to help me stop the emotional binge before it started. Brooke reminded me that I need to concentrate on making myself better and stronger, and she's right. I need to keep my focus on me! The other situation will work itself out - but me eating and getting off track won't fix a thing! It's just gonna make me feel worse. I also texted Yvette and she was immediately available for encouragement. Both of my friends reminded me that food will not ever make me feel better, or make the heartache go away. What WILL make me feel better is to know that I am the best ME I can possibly be - no matter what my circumstances are. I have to stay focused, and be mindful that 2010 is a new year full of new possibilities for me! No BS!!!!!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Still in control.

First day back at work with students and they day went well. I had a healthy breakfast, and packed a healthy lunch. But what is amazing is how I still "think" about not following my plan. There is something about school lunch that tempts me! It's really crazy, because it's NOT even that good, but I WANT it sometimes. Maybe because it's fattening and forbidden... who knows! But I caught myself checking the school lunch menu to "see what we're having." Fried fish sticks, mac and cheese... and something else processed and full of fat. I stuck with my lunch from home. Then, my co-worker busted open a box of oatmeal snack cakes and sat two of them by me... and I was tempted again. I only like the REAL Little Debbie Oatmeal Pies, lol, so since these were knock-offs I easily convince my fat-loving-alter-ego to pass on them. The final straw was when I went to the mini classroom fridge and saw a big hunk of FUDGE from before we went on break. FUDGE that I had made for everyone!!!!! I knew it was delicious... but I quickly slammed the door before I could think twice.

I feel different about this leg of my journey, so maybe things with "stick" and I can continue my success now. It's about time that I stop playing around and make the right choices to make this happen. It's time for me to put ME first and know that I am worth the time, effort, and energy it takes to change my eating habits and lifestyle. My biggest task is to just PAY ATTENTION. It is so easy to reach for a handful of M&Ms, or say yes to a snack cake when someone offers you one, or keep going for slice after slice of pizza while you're watching your favorite show. Well, at least it's easy for ME to do that. Not even realizing how those calories and bad habits are stacking up against me and my waistline. My goal is to be conscious all the time. To know EXACTLY what goes into my body and to feel good about it.

My main goal for this week is to start PAYING ATTENTION and to eliminate added sugar. I also am back to at least 100 ounces of water. Baby steps. Next week, I will tackle caffeine, which for me, is in the form of coffee. I quit diet sodas back in the spring, and amazingly enough, that is one bad habit I did NOT re-start. But I am having about 16 oz. of coffee every morning with skim milk and splenda. I tried this morning to skip it, but I SO needed that energy.... But I quit it before, and I will quit it again. Just not at the same time I'm quitting sugar... ya feel me?

I have also decided to start journaling my food again. AND I am going to try something new this weekend. I am going to start planning a menu. My plan is to sit down on Saturday and plan a menu for the week. Breakfast and Lunch for me daily, and dinner for everyone every day. After I plan the menu, I am going to grocery shop ONLY for those meals for the week. Hopefully this will help me be prepared each day, and give me a plan to stick to. It will hopefully keep me from veering off track on nights that are busy, and make dinner time a no-brainer activity. I will know in advance what needs to be laid out that morning, and know just what I need to prepare for lunch the next day. Any kind of organization and preparation right now should help me A LOT! And to be successful, I need all the help I can get!

Monday, January 4, 2010

Are you kidding me????

I stepped on the scale this morning and the number was TRAGIC. I have gained 20 lbs, which really made me disappointed in myself. I HATE back-tracking! It’s gonna SUCK to have to lose 20 lbs just to get back to where I was a few months ago. I almost let it upset me, but then I tried to look at the bright side….It could have been so much worse! No, I am not making excuses… just being honest. I could have gained it ALL BACK before I got my butt back in gear. Or I could have crept back into the 300’s… a place I have vowed NEVER to go again! I am thankful that although they are tight and not-so-comfortable, I can still fit into my size 20 jeans. I am gonna dig out a pair of size 18’s from my “vault” and hang them in my close for my next goal. For people who know me, ya’ll know that size 18 is sort of a magic number for me…

Back from 2003 – 2005 I lost 100 lbs, and was feeling amazing in my size 18’s. I gave away most of my 18’s after I had my youngest and gained all the weight back, but I still have many of my favorite pieces. I can’t wait to wear them again!!! That will be a huge milestone for me. I actually have a picture of myself at around 240 lbs (size 18) hanging on my mirror for motivation.

On the subject of exercise – I watched Jillian Michaels’s 30-day Shred, No More Trouble Zones, and Banish Fat, Boost Metabolism. Honestly, I think Jillian may be on crack if she thinks the average fat chick (me) can do this stuff. I could TRY… but I could possibly buckle my hardwood floors after a session of those damned jumping jacks she loves so much… what’s up with that? I think I can do the “Trouble Zones” dvd because it’s mostly strength and toning stuff. I plan to dig out my Biggest Loser DVD’s and bond with Jillian that way. They are much more fat-person-trying-to-exercise-friendly. I also need to get my garage cleaned out ASAP so I can use that space as a workout area. I think a concrete floor would be much better for cardio than hardwood floors in my living room. Don’t wanna end up in my basement…

Found this article today…. 8 great reasons to work out!

1. To Battle Depression
2. To Feel Sexy
3. To Stay Healthy
4. For The Kids
5. To Achieve New Goals
6. To Feel Happier
7. To Build Stamina
8. To Have Your Cake (and Eat It Too!)

Also, Kimberly Linton (DC’s Toughest Trainer) gave me a shout-out on her blog yesterday – Thanks Kimberly!

One more thing... I heard a commercial for the 50 Million Pound Challenge this morning, so I signed into my account for the first time in about a year. I originally signed up in October 2007, and I was pleasantly surprised to see that since then, I am now 36 lbs lighter than I was when I first signed up! My weight then was 326, and sadly it climbed all the way to 333 before I started really taking the weight loss seriously. That made me feel better about my scale number this morning. I am NOT back to square-one!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Making it a habit...

We all know the key to lasting weight loss is the ability to make a healthy diet and exercise a HABIT. A new friend of mine on Facebook (Ron Reed) posted this today, and I wanted to share it on here:

Seven Steps to a New Habit

Over 75% of New Years resolutions are broken within the first two weeks and 90% within the first month.

Want to start the year off right? Follow these seven steps and exponentially increase your chances of success:

1. Make a decision: Decide clearly that you are going to begin acting in a specific way 100% of the time.

2. Never allow an exception: No excuses or rationalization.

3. Tell others: The more people you tell the more committed you'll feel and the more support you'll receive.

4. Visualize: See yourself performing and behaving in a particular way in a particular situation. Always imagine and act "as if."

5. Create affirmation: Write out and always speak of your new habit in the present tense. Repeat your affirmation when you wake up, midday, and just before going to bed.

6. Resolve to persist: Never let yourself off the hook!

7. Reward yourself: Simple rewards both reaffirm and reinforce. Make discipline a pleasurable exercise.

To your success,

Ron Reed
Success Strategist
615-925-9035 CST
Mentoring with the heart of a servant

This is awesome advice! As you can see, one of the steps is "tell others", which I TOTALLY did yesterday! But the amount of encouragement and feedback that I've received since "coming out" has been overwhelming! It sure helped me to stay on track today. I feel great!

Now I need to start getting in some sort of exercise. Between being freezing cold and lazy today, I have done nothing... I keep planning on a DVD, and even downloaded a few today. But I really miss my elliptical (mine broke :( ) Even walking would be good... its just too cold! I'll figure out something... even if its just temporary until it warms up outside in a few months. Exercise is key to my weight loss success!

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Out of the closet....

One of the surest ways of staying focused on a weight loss plan is to have accountability, right? Well, I have officially opened the closet doors on my journey! Yes, I have had this blog for almost 2 years now, but most people who follow this blog don't "know" me in real life. So, since I am an avid Facebooker, I have "outed" myself on Facebook. I created a "fan" page and am planning on letting all of my friends and family on there support me on this journey. 2010 is the year for me to be thin! I am no longer in the closet... I am recruiting help and support wherever I can get it!

It's funny, but almost immediately after I published that page and posted my plan and goal, I panicked a little.... Now almost everywhere I go and everyone I am in contact with "knows"... "Knows" I am trying to lose weight. "Knows" that I take a supplement to control my appetite. "Knows" that I struggle and am unhappy about the way I look. It's no longer a secret. But honestly, I think that is a good thing, right? The more people that know, the more people that can hold me accountable. And, the more determined I will be not to fail in front of all my friends and family... Publicly. On Facebook...

This is my plan to get back on track:

1. Get back on my supplement program and don't miss a dose!!!
2. Start drinking at least 100 oz. of water per day.
3. Eliminate sugar from my diet.
4. Start eliminating caffeine from my diet.
5. Eat clean - no processed foods and organic whenever possible.
6. 30 - 45 minutes of exercise at least 5 times per week.
7. Plan and prepare!!!!

When I followed this regimen back in the spring/summer, I lost weight. I just have to start focusing on ME again! I know I can do this! Time to make it happen!

Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy New Year!

It's a new year, and once again I will resolve to continue this weight loss journey. Honestly, I am SO HAPPY this holiday season is over! I have tried and tried to get focused, but when you are in the middle of a holiday season that revolves around food its hard to detox and get going on a diet plan. But I am ready to give it my best shot. Again.

I have been cleaning out my pantry today, and I will hammer down some kind of exercise routine tomorrow. It's just TOO COLD to walk outside, and my gym membership has expired. Good thing I have tons of fitness DVD's to choose from. I feel like starting big and maybe trying the 30-day shred. I really don't feel like baby steps at this point. I have GAINED A LOT OF WEIGHT. My jeans are TIGHT. UGH!!!

I can't wait to catch up on everyone's blogs and reading about renewed commitments!!