Friday, December 11, 2009


This detox crap is HARD! SO much harder than it was the first time around. In a nutshell, I started, failed miserably the second day, re-started yesterday, and have did well today. Wednesday was hell... it seemed like I had donuts, cookies, and other assorted candy and cakes pushed in my face all day! I ended the night with a full-out binge (which I am not proud of at all). I felt like such a FAILURE. Why can't I "kick the habit"? Why does this have to SUCK?

It all goes back to the fact that I am ADDICTED to sugar and caffeine. They both do crazy things to my body, and I can't have either in my diet. I know detox sucks, but I have to do it. All I can do is one day at a time. I hope that this weekend is better. As you can see, it is a Friday night and I am home blogging instead of hanging out with friends at a bar. I decided that the temptation of alcohol and fried appetizers is NOT what I need right now. I need to stay focused, because honestly, my body feels like SHIT right now.

I am so bloated, and my clothes are starting to fit tight. TOM arrived today, so I am kinda glad that I can blame some of it on that. I am also hoping that by the time the week is over, I will be in SUCCESSFUL detox mode and will lose the TOM bloat and a little more weight at the same time. That will give me the boost I seriously need right now. I used to feel so confident when I looked at pictures, now I am feeling a little panicky because my face already looks fuller.... It's DO OR DIE TIME.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Day 1 of Detox...

...and I feel like "ugh". But I know that it's normal. No sugar, no caffeine. No "cheating". I do know that I overate at dinner tonight, but I had dinner by 6 p.m. and have stayed out of the kitchen since. I will eat something light for a snack before bed, because I know that will help keep my metabolism going through the night.

I also took all of my supplements today, even though I did not prepare the night before. I ended up lugging all the bottles to work with me in a Publix reusable shopping bag with my lunch, lol. But I have bagged them all up for the rest of the week and tucked them in my purse. I have also already packed my lunch for tomorrow. Hopefully making it through day one will make it easier to be successful tomorrow. This is just something I HAVE to do.

I watched the Biggest Loser finale tonight, and the transformations always amaze me. Yes, I am skeptical of losing that much weight in such a short amount of time, but the fact is they still lost it and they look great. I was particularly impressed by Rebecca. I really like the little short dress, but the hair color made her look older...

So many times today when I was craving sugar or something "bad", I just tried to imagine how I would feel if I were thin. I've never been thin. Ever. So I don't really know how that feels. But I know how I feel whenever I am eating right and losing. My stomach doesn't feel bloated, my heartburn and knee pain disappears, and I can just FEEL my body running like a well-oil machine. I haven't had that feeling in several months, so I'll be happy when I just get back to that. Lol, it's okay if I AM fat, I just don't like to FEEL FAT. Do ya feel me?

And as promised - some information about why I take the supplements I take.


I bet you never thought that essential fatty acids (EFAs) were precursors to hormone-like prostaglandins, they regulate every body function at the cellular level. This includes water retention, sodium balance, and fat metabolism. When it comes to weight control, fat also:

* Carries fat-soluable vitamins A, D, E and K through the bloodstream
* Activates the flow of bile
* Helps the body conserve protein
* Slows the absorption of carbohydrates to balance blood sugar levels
* Is a building block for production of estrogen, testosterone, and other hormones
* Is a precursor for serotonin, which controls cravings and elevates your mood

Every cell in your body is protected by a membrane that is composed largely of fat. Even the brain is 60% fat.

The Amazing Omegas

Two of the most important types of fat are the polyunsaturates omega-3 and omega-6. Alpha-linolenic acid (ALA) is the leading omega-3. It is found in cold water fish, such as salmon, tuna, and cod, and their oils; in oils made from flaxseeds, hemp seeds, and walnuts; and in soybeans, wheat germ, sprouts, sea vegetables and leafy greens.

Omega-3 fats raise your metabolism, help flush water from your kidneys and lower your triglyceride levels. These fatty acids also increase the activity of carnitine to help your body burn fat better.

Under ideal circumstances the body converts ALA into EPA and then into DHA and finally into prostaglandins (which, remember prostaglandins regulate every body function at the cellular level including fat metabolism). However, excess sugar, a high intake of trans fats, stress, vitamin deficiencies are among inhibitors of this transformation.

The omega-6 fat linoleic acid (LA) can be found in unheated, unprocessed safflower, sunflower and corn oil. The body can convert the LA into GLA and AA and then into prostaglandins but often as I mentioned above this process is inhibited.

It is advisable to rely on the GLA found in borage oil (24% GLA), evening primrose oil (8-10% GLA) or black currant seed oil (15% GLA). The omega-6 fatty acids stimulate your thyroid, thus raising your metabolism, and activate your brown adipose tissue (BAT) to burn fat rather than storing it in your white adipose tissue (WAT).

What is GLA that is found in Primrose Oil, Borage Oil & Black Current Oil?

The GLA found in evening primrose oil mobilizes the metabolically active fat known as brown adipose tissue (BAT). This special form of fat, if available in sufficient amounts, can burn off extra calories and boost energy. BAT is a special insulating kind of fat found deep within the body that surrounds the vital organs.

The series I prostaglandins created from GLA are believed to regulate many aspects of metabolism. GLA induced prostaglandins regulate BAT by acting as a catalyst to either turn it on to trigger calorie burning or turn it off by triggering calorie conservation. Prostaglandins are also connected to a metabolic process referred to as ATPase. ATPase is also known as the sodium pump, a biomechanical process necessary to keep the right amount of potassium inside cell walls and too much sodium out. GLA-rich substances such as evening primrose oil, by means of prostaglandin activity, control the sodium pump, which in turn revs up metabolism.

Here is how the sodium potassium pump works within (just so you can get a visual):

It was through research conducted by David Horrobin, M.D., at the University of Montreal, and M. A. Mir., M.D., a senior researcher and consultant physician at the Welsh National School of Medicine in Cardiff, Great Britian that demonstrated how the right kind of fat stimulates the body's metabolic ability to burn fat. Their work demonstrated that evening primrose oil was most effective for those who were overweight by at least 10 percent. The key to this calorie-burning mechanism appeared to be the way the GLA-rich evening primrose oil worked via the prostaglandin pathways, a network of hormones that control, (as we said before) virtually all body functions at the cellular level, including fat metabolism).

BAT is a high-energy fat. Its only job is to burn calories for heat. When properly activated, BAT can become your own fat-burning machine. The words being properly activated. In thinner people, according to researchers, BAT is quite active. However, in those overweight, tend to have more sluggish BAT. Age appears to be a factor as well, with BAT activity slowing down as we get older. Thermogenic vitamins, minerals, herbs, and amino acids can help stimulate BAT.

Omega-3 fats are burned off more quickly than other fatty acids, so when you diet you loose omega-3s first, unless you include EFA (essential fatty acid) supplements and food sources. Otherwise, if you lose weight at the expense of your omega-3 supplies, you'll find that you regain the weight easily and will have a hard time losing that regained weight. Your metabolism will have slowed because your body is less effective in using insulin when omega 3-fats are missing.

So, this is why I take evening primrose oil and flaxseed oil. Plus, these oils keep my skin soft and moisturized.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Time to D.E.T.O.X...

YES! I said it! Detox!

Back in April, I made a lot of changes in the way I went about my diet plan. I stopped doing weight watchers, and started doing my own plan... a plan that a friend of mine helped me conceive. It basically revolved around eating clean, balancing meals and snacks, and taking supplements that supported my body's natural ability to burn fat and charge my metabolism. I kicked my sugar and caffeine habit, and lost about 30 lbs before I stalled out this summer. The plan we came up with will forever change the way I eat. Even when I am going through periods like I am now, where my diet is not my #1 priority, I am always conscious of the rules of the game. Does that make sense?

I've really been struggling lately to get my head in the game. My exercise was going good until it got so cold outside I couldnt stand to walk anymore. My gym membership expired last week and I have no money to renew it. And until Saturday, my living room was much too crowded to pop in a DVD. Pile on STRESS, STRESS, AND MORE STRESS... and I've been eating like crazy. So today, I went back through the tons of notes and emails that Yvette sent me back during the Spring. I made notes, and decided that all the times I have tried to get back on track, I have been omitting an important step... Detox. Here is the email I found on the subject...

"When you cut anything out of your diet that isnt good for you, your body will go through a detox. The detox is equal opportunity, doesnt matter if your thin, overweight, etc, its just the nature of the human body. The detox last roughly 5-7 days. You can experience headaches from sugar and caffeine withdrawal, sometimes people have broken out in something similiar to a heat rash for a day or so, you can be moody / grumpy, feel fatigue from not getting that caffeine rush, unpleasant things, its just your body's way of freaking out because it is no longer getting what it was use to, kind of like a child. But like everything else the body gets over it. Eventually, you don’t miss what you no longer have, especially when you are fueling your body properly, you will no longer crave sweet things the way you used to.

The first few weeks for some are very difficult! Not only mentally, but physically - - BUT TOTALLY worth it. My analogy is having a baby, the labor hurts, the reward great!

Yes, I think that this is something you can do if you want to because wherever the mind goes the body will follow. However, the keys to success is having a plan as to what you will do during this time when you are not feeling that great. For example, when you really are wanting that ice cream, or have a headache or feel tired and what to throw in the towel, what are something things that you are going to be committed to doing to coping with the unpleasantness? Will it be to take a walk, will it be to call your friends, will it be to text me because you need to vent. Sort of like of labor, you know its going to be painful but what are some things that you are going to do to get through that time, to make different choices, to get different results. The better prepared you are the more successful you will be."

In order for my body to start functioning to lose weight, I need to go through a detox. Tomorrow will be day one. I refuse to wait another day! I feel like crap and I can't take it anymore. I did it once, and I know I can do it again. I have all my supplements, so I don't have any excuse to wait!

Speaking of supplements... a lot of you have emailed me since my last post asking what supplements I take. I will give you a list and a brief explanation for each. But since I have poured through so much of this info about the supplements today, I will share info about each of them over the next few days.

Calcium Citrate +D - helps with withdrawel headaches, plus vitamin D helps with mood
Tonalin CLA - reduces the body's ability to deposit fat and promotes the use of stored fat for energy
Flaxseed Oil - Contains Omega-3 fats, which raise your metabolism, help flush water from your kidneys and lower your triglyceride levels.
Multi-vitamin for Her - to cover the rest of my bases!
Evening Primrose Oil - The GLA found in evening primrose oil mobilizes the metabolically active fat known as brown adipose tissue (BAT).
Acetyl L-Carnitine 400mg + Alpha Lipoic Acid 200 mg - fat burner
Milk Thistle - a liver regenerator and helps with bile stagnation
AssistU - all natural appetite suppresant (

I love my supplements - they work! Even when I'm eating like crap, I can feel a difference in my body when I take them. So WITH healthy eating and exercise, I KNOW these pounds are about to start melting off again! This, friends, makes me excited.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Walking (in the dark)...

Just a quick post...

Thanks for the advice about ads. I have decided to moderate comments for now to see how that goes...

Eating - so, so. Struggling with some emotional eating at work. The students have been stressin' me out every since we got back from fall break. Every time someone brings candy I have a hard time NOT eating it. Sometimes I start eating the crap before my mind tells me that I really don't even want it! I have to start really paying attention. But I am not throwing in the towel and allowing myself to let it ruin my whole day. I'm picking right back up with healthy eating immediately.

Exercise - good! Been walking a lot! I missed yesterday b/c it was raining, but so far the cold weather and darkness hasn't stopped me. I just bundle up and GO! Tonight I was thinkin' that I couldn't believe I was outside walking in the cold and dark, but there I was! It's almost like I have to go! Too funny, but hopefully it's off-setting the eating.

Supplements - I am taking all my supplements again and can really tell a difference. I am never hungry and my energy is really good! Maybe that's why I suddenly feel like exercising again?

Ok, off to bed!