Friday, August 14, 2009

Moving forward... TGIF!

TGIF! This has been a LLLLOOONNNGGG week! I hate being sick! I am feeling much better, but still have this awful cough, and am constantly out of breath and sweaty! Ugh! I can finally take a deep breath that fills my lungs, so I'm pretty sure I'm on the path to recovery. I am still not up to exercise, though, which BLOWS! I am totally missing my gym time. I even had to let my daughter mow the grass yesterday. It is awesome that she was willing to do it, though. I am so thankful.

Today I get my first paycheck since the end of May! Woo HOO! I am BROKE! It will be great to finally get some steady income rolling in. I have decided that I am buying a new pair of jeans today. The last time I bought jeans I wore a size 24 and they are ridiculously too big. I think I'm gonna shoot for a size 20 tonight, since my size 22 denim is getting really loose. I have a Lane Bryant coupon, and saw online yesterday where they have a new style of straight-leg jeans I want to check out. I am a boot-cut gal, but I think I wanna try something different.

Yesterday I was reading Jack Sh*t's blog and it really got me thinking about my level of commitment. Yes, I am doing a lot better than I did this summer, but I'm still not giving 100%. I admit that - there is not denial going on. Yes, I might get frustrated because the scale isn't moving, but it's my own fault. I don't have excuses, but I do have a solution. Get my ass in gear!

I read so many blogs, and I do see where some people eat cake icing out of the can and brownie batter in excessive amounts and wonder why they are not losing weight or re-gaining all the weight they lost. I feel for these folks because I've been there. At that time, something just had not "clicked" for me yet. I was in denial, going in circles. I was stressed out and going through so much emotional stuff that I was unable to concentrate on my weight loss. I wanted it so bad, but I didn't want it enough to commit to making the changes that are necessary to lose weight. I continue to read their blogs, because I know that one day it will "click", and I want to be there to celebrate with them.

But I also see where some people are really losing a lot of weight, or have already met their goal, and act like they are the know-it-alls of weight loss. One is no better than the other in my book. Statistics are pretty solid. The majority of people who lose a lot of weight gain it back, and the same people you pass on the way down, you will pass on the way back up. It just peeves me a bit when someone who has weighed over 400 lbs criticizes people like me (who don't lose consistently). Who makes them the expert? Keep that weight off for 10 or more years and then you can attempt to judge me.

Sorry for that tangent... it just got under my skin yesterday. I hate it when people think they are better than other people. Just one of my pet-peeves.



  1. I really do understand what you mean. My friend and I joined the gym and he lost 13 pounds in two weeks because he is obviously under eating(I know this because he is staying w/ us for the summer), I only gained a pound or so of muscle, and he always gives me slack for it. Oh you're not pushing yourself hard enough, or you eat too much. I'm like excuse you I went from being non active to going to the gym almost everyday, I just need to find a median with food. Sometimes I find myself over eating sometimes I under eat. I keep on telling him this isn't just for summer i'm trying to make a lifestyle change. Some people never get it! But good luck with finding new jeans! Have fun! I dislike jean/clothe shopping for that fact I stick to shoes lol.

  2. I know what you mean too. I have maintained a large loss for 12 years, but I don't ever, ever, ever criticize anybody. This journey is not easy, and it takes a lot of starts and stops sometimes.

    I never understand why people try to "one up" other people. What's the point?


  3. I get what you are saying - sometimes it seems like there are a lot of "experts" out there in blogland. But I try to remember that everything I read is just that person's opinion and personal experience, and what works for them won't necessarily work for me.

    Hope you find a cute pair of jeans tonight! And I'm glad to hear you're feeling better!

  4. I totally hear you. I've lost it all and I thoroughly believed and said many times, "I'll never go back". Well, it's one thing to say it, and another thing completely to do it.

    Ironically, it was my black & white thinking that BOTH gave me that idea that I had it licked and got me back to where I am.

    I try very hard not to judge the judgmental "losing it or lost it" bloggers because I have been there and I know how they feel right now. I thought I was bulletproof too. I also truly hope that every one of them does really keep the weight off. (Even though sometimes it's hard not to wish pounds onto their butts!)

    Good luck with the 20s!
    Good luck

  5. I hear you! As far as I'm concerned, no one should be criticizing or commenting on someone else's way of getting fit. If we are going to succeed, we need to do it our own way, at our own pace and in our own time. The only expert for you is you.
    You shouldn't be feeling like you've been slacking. You lost almost 60 pounds and you've maintained it all summer. That's a huge accomplishment. And from what I can tell, you are still going strong! Plateaus are annoying. I know. I'm on one. Like you, some of it is just my body adjusting. Some of it is me not being as careful. But we can do this! And the way I see it, if the weight comes off slowly, it's with changes that can be maintained for the long haul.

  6. Its definatly something that I hae noticed from silently reading people blogs, there seems to be alot of chastising of other weight loss bloggers which makes me sad! because i think its a community that needs to stick together!


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