Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Self-sabotage and SUGAR

I woke up this morning and had two donuts. I had two more after I got to work.

I went to the store yesterday, but was rushing through. I got oatmeal, but that's about it as far as healthy food choices go. There wasn't enough hours in my day yesterday. We didn't get home until 9 p.m. My house is a disaster zone. Because I haven't been home, unpacking has been slow. We keep bringing loads from the old house, and are just shoving it into the garage. Now we can barely get through the garage to the back door! My BFF (Jessica) came over last night with her 4 boys to see the new place. I got the kitchen straightened enough to make frozen pizza for all 7 kids. Today should be the LAST load from the old house. I thought I was finished yesterday, then I looked in the garage and found several things left in there that I have to get (like my grandmothers rocking chair).

So today my plan is: Get the last load from the old house, go to Publix to get fresh fruit/veggies and healthy meal choices for Momentum, be home by 5 p.m. and unpack continuously until 7 p.m., be in bed by 9 p.m. I have to get organized ASAP so I can start planning my meals the night before. We are leaving 15 - 20 minutes late every morning because we are not waking up on time, because we are going to bed too late. Things are just too hectic and it's wearing us all down. Thankfully we have a 3-day weekend coming up.

So this morning I am reading Scale Junkie's blog, and she's talking about self-sabotage. I could totally identify with her post. Am I in a phase of self-sabotage, or is it just the emotional turmoil I'm going through that is derailing my healthy eating plan? Or is it both? Whatever it is, I have to stop it. I say that every day, but so far I am still caving to these damned DONUTS! Why am I buying them? Why do I even go to that section of the store, since it's across the store from the PRODUCE aisle?

For over a year I have realized that I am addicted to sugar, but eliminating it from my diet has not been something I've been willing to do. But I think it may be necessary to rid myself of these awful cravings that I have. Just for a week, maybe? Can I live without the high? Honestly, I don't know if I can do it, but I have to try to at least cut down. Sugary foods are always my downfall, and always the beginning of my periods of self-sabotage.

I looked at Kroger for Greek yogurt yesterday and couldn't find any. The healthy food selection at Kroger is slim. So I noticed that near my new house there's a PUBLIX right down the street, so I am going there after school today. Publix is known in these parts for having more selection of healthy foods, and their produce is always good. More expensive, but worth it. By the time I go to bed tonight, I am going to have my meals planned for tomorrow. No excuses this time!


  1. Hang in there, you're going through a lot right now. Just try your best and try not to beat yourself up over it. I would say just try to maintain through the next few weeks. When I have a lot going on that's what I try to do. Hope things get better.

  2. You're doing a lot at the moment so don't feel discouraged. a few meals don't undermine all the change you've made so far as long as you don't let it spiral out of control we all cant be perfect 100% of the time


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