Friday, December 5, 2008


I made it through the day yesterday and was successful at being back on track! I didn't journal or count points, but I know I did well. I ate my fruit, and didn't cave at fast food or vending machines at all. I also drank about six cups of water, which is a step up from ZERO cups! When I was on my way home from work at midnight last night, I felt very successful about my day. Now, I just need to repeat the same today. I am prepared, so hopefully all will be well.\

My husband made me so mad this morning. He is really a jerk. I woke up with a sore throat this morning, and I asked him if he could please fix the heat in our car. It was about 20 degrees when I left work last night, and it's at least a 20 minute ride home with no heat in the car. He's told me several times that it was just a blown fuse, but this morning he informed me that it was something else that required him taking the dash out of the car. He said it wasn't worth the trouble to fix it, so he wasn't going to do it. Then he said, "You're just going to have to suffer." OMG! That really pissed me off. I really wanted to tell him that being married to him, and busting my ass working two jobs because he's so damned sorry should be suffering enough, but I held my tongue. No, I take that back...I did tell him that I though he was sorry as hell. It's his fault that we're in such a financial mess in the first place.

I don't know, but that confrontation this morning just strengthened my resolve to lose weight. I'm tired of letting people around me sabotage my weight loss efforts. He is my number one saboteur. As long as I'm fat and unhappy, he knows that I will not empower myself to make positive changes in my life. Every time I'm on a successful track to weight loss, he makes me feel guilty for putting my needs about his. I'm tired of it, and it's not going to happen this time.


  1. Love the positive attitude Hollie! Your last paragraph said a lot about your determination and strength! I know you can do this! Remember, just take it one day at a time!

  2. I love that you are putting you first! That is such a big step! You can do it!

  3. Hang in there, girl!! One day at a time!!


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