Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Being prepared!

Ok, so tonight is my first official night at my new job at Target. Although I'm excited to be moving around and being active while I work, since my shifts range from 4 - 11 p.m., I'm nervous on how I'm going to be able to eat healthy and make good dinner choices. I have Starbucks within Target, Taco Bell next door, and Wendy's across the street, so I decided to find NI so I can make good choices (just in case). My plan is to bring my dinner on days that I know I will get a break. There will be other days (like today) that I won't get a meal break because I'm only scheduled for 4 hours. My plan is to always have a plan! But just in case, I need good choices.

SO, I am armed and ready with the information I need for several choices written in my food journal.

I'm participating in DIETSODADIVA's Holiday Challenge and I'm psyched! I also made some long-term goals in my journal today for weight loss. It looked good to see a plan that would have me under 200 lbs. by January 2010 (worst case scenario/slow loss). Woo HOO!

The damage...

I got back on the scale yesterday, and was at 308.6, which is up two lbs. I'll take it as a slap on the hand for all the bad food I stuffed in my body over a 7 day period. I'm glad it wasn't more. I'm already feeling stronger every day, and I know I'll be able to lose that plus some. I don't feel discouraged, but confident!

This afternoon I report to my first official day at my second job. I'll be working on the sales floor at Target, so I plan on being able to move/walk a lot on the job. The only thing that spooks me is the Starbucks on site. I got hungry during orientation on Saturday and had a Frappuccino (Sp?). It ended up being 8 pts! But I did see that they had light versions available for most of their drinks.


Sunday, November 16, 2008

Picking up where I left off...

Wow, I can't believe it's been so long since my last post. I fell off the wagon. I didn't just fall off the wagon, I fell off it, then was dragged with my face in the ground for about 6 days.

Looking back, I guess I should have saw it coming. It started with one bad meal, then another, and another, until I was out of control. Each day I would wake up and resolve to do better, but would get off track by lunch time. It started with pizza, then led into cake and cookies. It was uncontrollable, and I was weak and dizzy from the sugar high. But I knew it couldn't continue. I wouldn't let myself stay in that condition, because that's not who I am anymore.

I got on the scale yesterday, and the damage was minimal. Since I completely skipped WI and WW last Monday, I will officially post my WI tomorrow. I have been back on track since Thursday, and I feel strong again. I made good choices at the grocery today, even though the little devil in my head was trying to convince me the crescent rolls were a good idea. Yeah, they're only 2 pts each, but I knew I just can't stop at one.

So I made a good recipe (it's posted in my recipe link), and expect to end the day well. I also made a point-friendly dessert, but haven't posted it yet because I want to try it first. I don't ever post recipes until I've tried them and like them.

I started a second job yesterday (Target), so I plan to continue on with my job at the school and my education plans. Although I am planning to transfer to a local school in the Spring instead of the online classes. And my husband got a job! He starts tomorrow, so I'm hopeful that he'll put forth the effort to do well.

I also wanted to say thank you to all of my friends who read this blog. I thought about you all every day, and felt guilty that I was purposely avoiding you because I had failed. But I remembered that this is a journey, and that everyone falls. I am picking myself up, though, so I can keep going with you guys!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Day 74 - Eating out

I guess you can say I failed the eating out test (if there is one). Today when Clyde picked me up from work, he said he wanted to go out to eat. Well, since Applebee's has the Weight Watcher's menu, and since we thought that kids eat free, we decided to go there. I can't remember the last time we went out to eat. I think it was back in May/June when we got our stimulus check. We just don't have the money, and even if we did I still don't think it's worth it. But since we made a lot of money on eBay this weekend, and since I guess Clyde was feeling generous, I agreed.

Well, we got there and nothing on the WW menu looked good to me. I'd already tried a couple of the entrees in the past, and I didn't like them, so I decided to go with something I'd been wanting. So, I ordered a riblet basket (hey, I used to get the whole platter). The fries were good, but the riblets tasted terrible so I didn't eat them all. But I wasn't mad about it, because this is a treat, right? It's not like I eat like this all the time, or even have the opportunity to. What was a splurge was the dessert I shared with Clyde. But it was GOOD!

I'm going to Applebees.com to see if I can figure out how bad I did. I had 22 points left for the day, and I just did 53 minutes on the elliptical, so I probably won't have to dip too far into my WAP's. Oh, and after dinner I WALKED to Wal-mart and had Clyde meet me over there. It was such a pleasant evening weather-wise. But like I said, I'm not mad or upset. It was a treat, and this is a lifestyle. I promised myself in the beginning that I wouldn't be deprived, because the minute I feel deprived I know I won't be able to stick with it. Deprivation = diet, and I'm NOT on a DIET!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Yes We Can!

I am so happy! All Americans are experiencing history history right now. As an American, I can't tell you how proud it makes me to know that after all this time, our country has put aside racial differences to elect a candidate that will bring about the change we need. As an African American, I take great pride in knowing that after hundreds of years of oppression, it is now possible for a black man to become the most powerful leader in the world. As an African American WOMAN, seeing Michelle Obama and the beautiful Obama girls in the White House makes me so emotional. I can now truthfully tell my children that the sky is the limit to what they can succeed. This is a proud day for me, and for our country.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Day 71 - Weigh In!

I weighed in at 306.6 this morning! Woo HOO! That's a 2.4 lb. loss from last week. I actually made it through Halloween weekend without a gain, which is HUGE for me. My children actually did not go Trick-or-treating, so there was no tempting candy at my house at all. My 11 yr old said she was too old, my 8 yr old son just didn't want to go, and my 2 year old freaked out when she realized she actually had to WEAR her costume. So instead I ordered pizza and rented movies. It was a good deal!

I also EXERCISED this weekend. I did 46 minutes on the elliptical on Saturday and 55 minutes on the elliptical yesterday. I downloaded some new music on my IPOD and it really motivated me to get moving. Both days I got on the elliptical with a 20 minute goal, and just kept going until I was either tired or ran out of water. I was in a zone. And both days I felt so good afterward. I think I'm going to go back to exercising in the evening, because I slept like a ROCK this weekend after working out and getting a good shower.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Who's that girl?

"Who is this lady with A.J.?" That's what I asked myself as I was looking through some old pictures I found on some CD-ROM's yesterday. I was looking back through some old vacation pics from 2005 (before I had baby #3 and gained all my weight back). I was flipping through and came across this picture that I don't remember ever seeing before. I know the little boy is my son at age 4 because I recognize the building (which was his preschool), but I can't figure out who the lady is walking with him. I know it's not his teacher, so I was almost disturbed at this photo with some random woman. As I sat here staring at the picture, racking my brain, I realized it was ME! Who? ME! I was wearing a size XL sweater from NY&CO and a pair of size 18 Levi's. And heels. I used to wear heels every day because I felt sexy when I wore heels, and I think they made my legs look thinner.

While I'm at it, I might as well show you a few more pictures of me from back in 2004/2005. I was about a size 18 in all of these pics, weighing about 230 - 240 lbs.

These pictures represent the "me" that I want to get back to. Some people might consider 240 lbs or a size 18 to be fat, but this was the smallest that I'd ever been in my adult life. Besides this time, the last time I wore a size 18 was in 8th grade! At this point, I had lost 100 lbs, so I was very comfortable in my skin because in my mind I'd achieved greatness. I mean, I was shopping in "regular" stores. I could wear an 18 without a "W" next to it. My self-confidence was through the roof, and I was still losing! I have no doubt that I could have kept going and got to my goal weight then if I'd not got pregnant.

But that was then, and this is now, and I WILL make it to goal this time thanks to the miracle of tubal ligation! No more babies for me! No more excuses!