Arrggh! I got to work this morning, and what do I find? A huge treat bag of Halloween candy on my desk. Do I throw it away? No. Do I give it away to someone? Not right away. This is the first time since starting this journey that I've felt like I almost lost control. I love candy, and it's always a struggle to say no to something you have loved for so long. I've WASTED 9 points so far today on this damned candy, so I gave the rest away to the students in my class. I just want to scream I'm so upset with myself for falling for the bait!
Thanks to Dottie's, I've been able to journal and account for the candy I've eaten, and now it's gone so I can't keep eating it. I've got 18 pts for the rest of the day, so I'm sure I can stay within my points even after this mess up. I've got the rest of my day planned out as far as eating goes. I'm also going to really try to get on the elliptical tonight. I'm not back on a good sleeping schedule, so I've been going to bed WAY too late to get up early to exercise. But I'm working on it, since I know that a.m. exercise works best for me.
I also have a NSV to report...I'm wearing a size 24 pair of slacks, and they are NOT tight at all. Of course, they're a little stretchy (Hampton's from Lane Bryant), but still a 24! I feel silly after complaining about it on Monday, now. But I think one of the reasons that my smaller pants weren't feeling looser was the type of underwear I've been wearing. Back in the summer I'd gotten so big that all of my usual "sexy" underwear were too small, so I went and bought some big cotton underwear from Wal-mart (big-momma panties). I didn't realize until the other day that my panties had gotten so big that I was having to stuff the excess back inside of my pants when I get dressed! So yesterday I pulled out a pair of my "sexy" underwear, and the fit better than ever! And my pants are fitting better, too! I never thought the excess COTTON would have made that big of a difference. I guess because it's so much of it! LOL!
This may sound silly, but just wearing "sexy" panties for the past two days has really boosted my self-confidence! I feel so much better when I look in the mirror because my clothes fall different on my body, and when I walk my class to lunch and don't get winded. It's a great feeling, and very motivating! I'm only 10 lbs away from my first goal of 299 lbs., and I'm going to try my best got get there before Thanksgiving. In my opinion, being under 300 lbs. will be A LOT of motivation to stay on plan during the holidays. I know one thing, when I get under 300 lbs, I'll NEVER go back again!