Sunday, October 12, 2008

Day 49 - Recharging

MizFit left a comment on yesterday's blog saying that I'm not lazy, I'm recharging. I like that! Recharging - yeah, that's it!

Well, today was another day of "recharging" for me. I didn't get any formal exercise in, but I did laundry and cleaned house all day. Since I washed and folded at least 10 loads, I think I can pretty much count it as some sort of activity. Especially when I was folding the four sets of sheet - my arms were killing me.

I had a good dinner tonight, too. I posted an easy meatloaf recipe for anyone who wants to look at it.

My BFF called me tonight and told me that she's been diagnosed with fatty liver disease. She had her gallbladder taken out on Tuesday, and apparently the surgeon found the fatty liver during the operation. AND he was a real dick about it. I'm sorry, but when someone is recovering from surgery, it's not a good time for a doctor to make you feel like shit for being overweight (which is what he did). She's going to follow up with her regular doctor to see what the next course of action needs to be. It's obvious that losing weight will help, but how fast isn't clear.

Something I realized while talking to her was that this is the exact reason I don't go to the doctor. I don't have health insurance, so I use that as the excuse. But I know the real reason is that I don't want to hear a doctor belittle me for being so fat. My reasoning is that "I'll go to the doctor after I lose weight." I think I'm pretty healthy, but I know I have a few issues that need to be addressed (like sharp abdominal pains). But I guess I just haven't cared.

I know that sounds bad, and some will think, "how can she not care about her health." Well, not caring about my health has got me to 300+ lbs. Most people don't have any idea about how little I really think of myself in the grand scheme of my life. And I know I'm not alone in that thinking. BUT, that's why I'm here. I am making a conscious effort to care, and to get healthy for good. The first step is getting my eating under control and to lose weight. Everything else will hopefully fall into place after that.

1 comment:

  1. I understand what you are saying about not caring about your health. I, too, want to wait to see the doctor until I am in better shape - and I don't have an excuse since I have mandatory health insurance.

    I find that housework can be a real workout.


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