I read a very profound article on here this morning by Benjamin P. Hardy about how being mediocre can stand in the way of success. And it dropped truth bombs all over the place. And I needed them.
After resolving to have a good weekend (with food), I half-assed it. I did well on Saturday, but woke up to a bowl of cinnamon toast crunch yesterday and it was downhill from there. And the whole time, I knew my choices were bad. And I just kept going with it.
I did, however, take some time out to sit outside in the sunshine and think for a little while about how I needed this week to go. Why do I sabotage myself? Why do I settle for behavior that is less than what I am capable of? Why do I keep making excuses?
So I decided that another try at an extended fast is in order. Not only to get back on track food-wise. But because I need to really ponder what I want out of my life right now. I need to pray, I need to get focused. I need to stop convincing myself that I’m ok with the way things are. Because I’m not.
My goal with this fast is 5 days. And when I’m done, I’ve also decided to be 100% ketogenic again. No more playing around. No more dabbling with other things, or allowing carbs here and there. I need to get back to what I know is best for MY body, and that’s keto. I KNOW that once I’m fat adapted, these cravings and food behaviors will go away. I just have to get there.
SO, back to the article… some of the truth bombs that were dropped:
- What is private always shows itself publicly (food addiction, for example).
- The first step of evolution is to stop desiring the things that are stopping you from evolving (sugar and processed foods that I hold so dear and don’t want to give up).
- Change your desires to reflect your values. When your desires truly change, you will adapt your environment to match your new desires. you will no longer justify what you were once ok with (cheat days, meals).
- Until you REALLY want to change, you won’t. (ouch!)
- Everything you have in your life is what you want. Your circumstances reveal you. (again, ouch!)
- Success is taking 20 steps in one direction rather than one step in 20 directions.
Well, it is my goal to take some steps in the right direction this week.
I just downloaded The ONE Thing by Gary Keller and Jay Papasan to listen to on commute. I’m also going to re-read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.