Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Feeling better, moving forward

I'm feeling a lot better than I was this weekend... I guess clean eating, exercise, and lots of water have eventually flushed all of the bad "stuff" out of my system. I finally got my protein powder in, so I've also been doing my green smoothies again. I'm happy about that. 

I also get to have protein coffee again... Not even able to drink coffee without protein powder anymore!

I'm super excited about my 5k on Saturday. I wanted to run this, but I'm going to walk with a group of friends. I'm doing this in honor of my friend, Coree, who I'm proud to say is a SURVIVOR of lymphoma. And I'm also doing this in memory of my dad, who died of prostate cancer in 2005.

I'm very thankful to be in a place fitness-wise where I'm looking forward to a 5k... After walking 5+ miles per day all summer, walking 3 miles will be a breeze. But lately, I have been feeling really down about this journey. I've basically been stuck in the 260's (size 18) since May/June. I know I haven't been rigid with my eating, but I've done so much less and lost so much more weight. It's alike my body is rebelling... And I'm pissed about it.

Losing weight is so hard... It's such a battle. It's so tempting to just how in the towel and give up. But I absolutely refuse. I don't believe I'm supposed to stay this size or this weight. I feel like it's destined for me to be fit and healthy... I'm just gonna have to keep pushing to get there.

I've joined ANOTHER challenge on Instagram... My 21-day challenge just ended without me losing any weight at all :( But I can say it helped me clean up my eating and cut way down on the sugar again.this new challenge is 7 weeks, so will take me through to October. I've been working out and tracking my calories again, so I'm praying for results soon. I even bought one of those waist belts that make you sweat more while exercising. I just need to see some progress soon.