Tuesday, December 11, 2012

A different reaction...

Today was STRESSFUL. Crappy. I've had to reel myself in from a terribly bad mood.

After a crappy day, I left work with my youngest and went straight to the high school where my nephew had a wrestling meet. It was my job to set up the concession stand for their home meet. My oldest daughter stayed after school to help me. We got everything set up, when they broke out the fresh baked cookies and pizza. Both smelled so good, and both are trigger (binge) foods for me.

For 7 days I've been low-carb, and am finally to a point where I'm feeling good. But those cookies and that pizza almost sent me over the edge. So as soon as another mom showed up, I left. I had to go home to get my youngest ready for her basketball game.

When I got home, I was greeted by my 12-yr old son, who was FREAKING OUT. I was so scared that the house was on fire, but then saw the broken glass all over the kitchen floor and noticed that the glass in the back door had been broken out. I asked him if someone was in the house, and he said there wasn't. But that he couldn't get his key to work and broke the glass to get inside. After being locked outside for 2+ hours. Thing is... his key worked just fine. On the front AND back door. Not sure what the hell was going on in his head, but it just added to my crappy mood.

I made a quick dinner for myself (more fish and broccoli since I've been craving fish lately). So I head out to
my little girl's basketball game. It was a good game, and I had a little time to calm down and assess my day. One thing stuck out...

I did not turn to food... not once. If anything, I had this strange sensation of NOT being hungry.

Over the past few days, I've adopted a strategy of only eating when I'm hungry, and stopping when I'm full. And it seems to be working pretty well. But I have to say that it's a strange sensation to "feel" hungry, and to "feel" full. And to know that it's not emotions or habit fueling my desire to eat. That's a really different feeling for me. I am not only seeing progress on the scale, but also seeing progress with the mental part of the battle. I'm setting myself up for long-term success!