I'm sure I've posted this pic before, but I saw it today and it really fits how I feel right now. I'm sore. My legs are screaming in pain from hiking on Sunday, and also going to the gym Monday night. I did 30 slow minutes on the elliptical... I wanted to quit after 10. But I pushed through. I couldn't be a quitter. Today was day 1 of Jillian's 30-day Shred with co-workers after school. I hurt.
I've done much better with eating. Not perfect... But what is perfect? I've tried for years to find the perfect eating plan and I'm just not sure it exists anymore. I've been fat free, carb free, low calories, high calorie... I've drank about every meal replacement I'm the market. I've taken countless pills. I've done no sugar. I've done Paleo. Weight Watchers. Medifast. Body by Vi. Isagenix... Probably more than that. None of these plans have been perfect for me. Some have worked better than others, though.
I've found that lower sugar and lower carbs work best for me to lose weight. But I am addicted to sugar. If I restrict too much at once, I'm not going to follow the plan. No matter what it is.
So what's my happy medium? Can I be happy during weight loss? Yeah... I think I can. I'm pretty happy when I see the results of my hard work. I'm pretty happy when I see the scale move in the right direction, and when I buy smaller clothes. Right now I'm happy because I feel like I'm doing something again.
But weight loss (for me) is not always shiny and happy. Sometimes it sucks. Like this summer, when I was stuck at a plateau and felt like it was impossible to lose weight. Or when I'm starving, or having a craving. Or when I'm weak because my body is craving carbs and I won't give in. Or when even after I've lost 50 lbs, I still look at my body and feel like it's a train wreck.
Ugh. What's the right way to lose weight? Hell if I know. All I know right now is that I have to. Being 300+ lbs sucks a whole lot right now. Almost as much as turning 40 in a couple of years. Being sick and in constant pain isn't easy. I have to lose weight. Hopefully, somehow I will figure it out. But until then, I'm just going to stick with small changes in my diet along with exercise. I'm watching carbs in an attempt to one day get as sugar-free as possible. I'm going to move in the right direction. Because I just can't afford to go backwards at this point.