Monday, August 20, 2012

Riding high...

10.21 miles. 1:13 hours. 942 calories. My 6 a.m. bike ride yesterday morning. I didn't think I was going to make it. Last Sunday Mr. L and I rode just over an hour and went about 8 miles. We didn't set out to go further this week, it just happened. We had to stop at a Mapco for Mr. L to pee, and honestly, I didn't think I would be able to make it the almost 2 miles home. I was DONE. But he pushed me, and I made it.

During the ride I went up this huge, winding hill that Mr. L has always referred to as Alpe d'Huez because it's a hard climb like the one in the Tour de France. It almost killed me, but I made it. I knew he was proud of me, because it took him a while to be able to make that hill, and I made it on my first try. At 300+ lbs.

I still refuse to weigh myself, and I am still ok with that. My life is so much happier without the stress of the scale. I am going to sign up for health insurance during open enrollment, so I should be able to see a doctor after January 1. I get a (slight) raise in September that should help cover some of the $500/month that it costs.  I need it. I am 99% sure that my issues stem from something medical now, so until I get to see a doctor, I will keep doing what I'm doing!

No matter what the scale says, I know and can now see the changes I've made since the end of May. I am stronger. My physical endurance is at an all time awesome. I mean, 6 months ago there is no way I could have survived a 10 mile bike ride! My food choices are so much better and my portions are good, too. I am just so happy to know that I am trying. Not losing/gaining weight SUCKS when you know deep down that you aren't doing anything to stop the madness. I know I am trying, so at least I have that victory. I will keep going, despite feeling a little down at times. I am confident that all this is setting me up for greatness in the end.

I am liking my new gym and got to meet with a trainer twice last week. He pushed me so hard on Thursday that it's still hard to raise my arms. It's crazy how all this time I really thought I was doing my best when it came to weights... I guess not! I took several rest days because I knew that it would be pointless to try to life again when I was so sore. But I am going back today.

**side note about my new gym: Although everyone is very nice and it's a very good facility... I feel so out of place! I am the only fat overweight plus-sized obese person I've seen there. I feel so self-conscious. At my old gym, there were all shapes and sizes. At this gym, there are lots of Ken's and Barbie's. I guess that's what more money will get you. It's ok... I still like it and will continue to go.

I also want to mention that I do NOT like Weight Watcher's online. Their database sucks, and their app is NOT user friendly. I miss MFP. My local WW is supposed to get the monthly pass option on Sept 1, so I might see if they will give me the credit left over from the 2 months left online to go to meetings. Either way, I will not renew. I don't have a problem with the points, or staying in them, it's just such a pain to track. And we all know that if it's not convenient I won't do it.

Well, I am off to the DMV with my daughter so she can get her permit, and then she has a doctor's appointment scheduled. I took off from work, so hopefully I can get all this stuff done today. She turned 15 on Saturday... oh how time flies!