Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Day 6... Strong within

I am feeling pretty strong right now. Today is day 6/30, and I am still going. 1800 calories each day, 100+ oz water, supplements, and exercise on 4/6 of those days. Yes... it's a good feeling to be in control.

Especially since we had a long weekend. But yesterday after my much-needed eye doctor appt, I went to the gym and found it to be pretty crowded. Still, I did 20 minutes on the elliptical and 20 minutes on the bike. I did the bike first, then tried out one of the new ellipticals with every intention of doing 30 minutes. Well, let's just say this new machine is not the same as the ones that I am used to. It kicked my butt! The resistance is definitely higher (even on level 1), and I think the incline is greater, too. I accidentally started out on weight-loss mode, and man! It was intense! I am definitely NOT ready for that. So I switched to manual mode and did 20 minutes. Afterwards, I was soaked with sweat.

And today, I got back on that same machine and did 30 minutes in manual mode. And it was HARD. A definite challenge. But I was up for it.

Yesterday I was also faced with a "social" challenged. I was invited by my neighbor to sub for Bunko night at another friend's house. I already had dinner before I went, but had about 400 calories left. Of course, there was food everywhere. Taco soup, chips and salsa, chicken and rice soup, two kinds of rolls/bread. And dessert... brownies, ice cream, cookies... and it all looked delightful.

7 days ago, I would have made me a bowl of taco soup, including extra cheese, sour cream, and Fritos (the way I like it!), and had a big, delicious brownie with vanilla ice cream for dessert. But yesterday, I didn't do any of that. I counted out a portion of chips, and had some salsa. And I also had a TINY piece of brownie and 1/4 c. of vanilla ice cream. It ended up being just a taste, and it was good. So good. I also drank water instead of the soda that was available. I held strong. I had looked at calorie counts on the chips, salsa, and ice cream, and I guessed at the brownie. SO when I got home and added everything up, I had went over 1800 by a few, but I still felt victorious.

I proved to myself that I could face a social situation and still stay on plan. I could "taste" what I wanted without going overboard. I stayed in control of what I put in my mouth. And I felt so good about it.

I am starting to really look forward to the future. I am starting to BELIEVE that I can really do this again. I am going to take it day by day and do the BEST I can.

Oh, did I mention that the scale said 306.4 this morning? That is 9.6 lbs down from the beginning of the year, and the lowest number I've seen all year. AND only 6.5 lbs until I am out of the 300's. I am really looking forward to leaving that number behind FOREVER!