Tuesday, January 3, 2012

2012 = Divine Destiny

Happy New Year!

I have been trying to blog for a few days now, but my life is still insanity. But you know what? I am learning to make the best of it.

As always, the new year brings on ideas, goals, plans, and resolutions. This year, I am just leaving things in God's hands. No resolutions for me, really. Hell, I always seem to make these resolutions that I don't keep anyway. Every year I resolve to lose weight, and for the past few years I have really sucked at that, lol!

I still DESPERATELY want to lose weight, don't get me wrong. I just have to start really BELIEVING that it's God's plan for me to lose weight, and I have the power to make the changes that are necessary.

I know what to do... I just need to believe in myself enough to know that I can do it. It CAN happen for me.

2011 was a crazy year for me. So many things happened that, I believe, has led up to great things happening for me in 2012. Sometimes you have to go through things in life to prepare you for good things to happen, maybe so you can appreciate them? I don't know, but I just have this feeling. I have a feeling that 2012 is not only the year that I finally get back on the road to healthiness (notice I didn't say weight loss), but also do lots of other things that I want to do.

For the first time this Christmas and this New Years Eve, I went to church. My faith in God has grown so much this year, and I have found a church that I really love in Nashville that my family and I have been going to on Sundays since this summer. The pastor is a phenomenal preacher, and both on Christmas and NYE he preached on how basically 2012 is the the year of divine destiny... He says the bible basically prophecies about the number "12", etc... the point is, while listening to both of these sermons I felt this overwhelming sense of PEACE about certain things, one of them being my weight loss journey. I really "feel" as if this is my time. I have the knowledge, I have the tools... all I need is faith in myself that I can do it. Deep down, I really think I KNOW I can do this. It just scares me to death because losing weight and keeping it off for long-term is truly the one thing in my life that I have NEVER been able to do for as long as I've tried.

It's late, and I feel like I am rambling, but hopefully you get my point. I really think this is going to be my year. And I know that the most important thing I can do right now is try. I CAN do this. I have come too far to let myself go any longer. I am going to make it happen, finally... God willing!

I also plan to blog more this year, so watch out :)