Monday, January 17, 2011

I have a dream...

“Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.”
Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. 

Happy MLK day! Even though we got FOUR snow days last week, I am happy to have one more day off from work. I had my second EGD today, and I got good news. I already knew that my reflux and heartburn had improved with medication, and had improved even more with a better diet. But the EGD showed improvement on the inside of my body as well. The ulcers and any other signs of damage are gone. The procedure was easy, and I was home 2 hours later.

Cleansing is still going well, but I did stumble a bit on Friday night. A friend cooked dinner for me, and it was NOT on plan. I ate, couldn't eat everything... my stomach just wouldn't allow it. I definitely can't stuff myself like I used to. Even with what I ate, I felt so bloated and icky that I just couldn't stand it! I find that my Isagenix meal replacement shakes keep me within my comfort zone right now. I have even figured out how to make them taste better (frozen strawberries instead of ice, and one packet of Splenda).

I made a goal this week to journal my food and calories, and I dropped off after a few days. I NEED to do better on this, so I made it my goal for this week, too. Tonight, I am getting everything ready for this week at school. Organization is key. If I have everything I need at my fingertips, then I can stay on plan.

I am also losing weight. How much? I don't know yet... My leg started swelling after I went back to work on Friday. I am honestly afraid to weigh in with the swollen leg because if I see a higher number on the scale, I know it is going to play with my emotions! The scale can play such mind tricks with me... larger numbers instantly discourage me and smaller numbers can instantly motivate me. I am doing everything that I can diet-wise to help with the swelling, and keep my leg elevated when possible. It's just not really possible to keep it elevated while I am at work.

So, until I feel like I am able to weigh again, I am going to measure my weight loss in other ways. My pants are already looser. Thursday night, I was playing Wii over at a friends house, and my jeans kept falling down. When I went back to school on Friday, several people came up to me and told me they could tell I was losing weight. And did I mention that I FEEL so much better?

On Thursday night and last night, I went to my best friends house to play Just Dance on the Wii. It is such a workout! But let me tell you, it felt so good to be exercising again. Not just because I was burning calories, but because I was ABLE to workout again. I really need to keep this up and get back to the gym asap. I even thought about buying the game for me to play at home. I love to dance, and it IS a good workout. We will see... I am all about baby steps right now, and I am really concentrating on just drinking my water and following my Isagenix plan right now. Maybe if I can keep up with my journaling goal this week, I will make a gym goal next week.