Friday, December 17, 2010

Do you have a "reset" button?

Something really weird is happening... besides my crazy-swollen leg and cankles.

Somehow I feel like after having surgery and being sick, my body has hit some sort of "reset" button.

I no longer feel compelled to binge on sugar.

I don't even want it. Or crave it. It doesn't phase me.

The holiday season is usually very hard for me... weight-loss-wise. I always fail my diet because I can't say 'no' to the sweet treats, cakes, cookies, fudge, candy, etc. that seems to constantly be passed around. I eat all I want, and usually just deal with the fall-out on January 1.

But this year is different. I just don't want it.

Last week, I made two batches of cookies for my kiddos when we had two snow days. I can count how many I ate over three days... under 10. And they were very small, quarter-sized cookies. In the past, I would have sat down with the whole container.

I have received cookies, candy, and fudge as teacher gifts this week. Instead of snacking on it throughout the day, it's just sat on my desk. I actually brought in Dunkin Donuts for my co-workers this morning and only had ONE. One of my co-workers even made a remark about how something had changed. She knows my usual struggle with sugar and all things related. She seemed a little shocked at my behavior, lol.

All those sweet treats are sitting on my kitchen table. Still wrapped up. I just don't want them.

Oh, and I suddenly don't like pizza anymore either! TWICE I've passed up pizza because the thought of eating it makes me sick. I just don't want it.

Don't get me wrong... I AM NOT COMPLAINING. This is really a good thing for me!

Somehow, after all this drama surrounding my surgery, my body has hit a 'reset' button and I guess it just needs something different. Maybe it was the Isagenix cleanse I was doing before my surgery... who knows? All I know is that this holiday season I am losing weight instead of gaining. I am in control of my eating. Which is good.

On another note... I thought I had taken the last of my Lovenox injections on Wednesday, but since my Coumaden levels are still too low, I had to go back on the injections today. Which is a total bummer. AND my leg is swollen tight tonight. I am SO sick and tired of being sick and tired. I really want to be back in the gym next week. A girl can only hope, right?