Friday, June 4, 2010

Weekend: Interrupted

Today started off GREAT....

....But is ending terribly.

NOT with eating, though. Shocker.

I have finally had an emotionally trying day where I am NOT using food to comfort myself.

Original Plan: Head to Jess's house around noon... swim... cook... relax and have fun for the rest of the evening. Make a grocery run so that food will be on plan and making good choices will be easy.

What actually happened: Well, everything was on plan until dinner. That's when I got a phone call. My ex basically ruined my day and sent me into turmoil. In about 2.5 minutes I was so stressed out I wanted to cry. I wanted Ben & Jerry's, Oreos, and Krispy Kreme. I wanted to numb the pain with food.

But I didn't. Because that really never works anyway.

I decided to just come home. I'll go back to Jess's tomorrow, because I still need to watch her kids so she can work tomorrow afternoon. But tonight, for me, I just needed to come back home.

After I publish this post, I will go to bed so I don't have to deal with temptation. I won't let my mind trick me into thinking I'm hungry.

If there is one thing I can control right now, it is what I put in my mouth. I will not let stress and emotions derail me. I am doing too well.

I will re-group, and try to stay focused this weekend. I stocked Jess's pantry with good, healthy food for me to have while I'm there. No excuses.