Tuesday, June 8, 2010


I had an inservice meeting today and I absolutely fell apart! I am NOT ready to be out of my controlled eating environment. I have done well all week, but take the control over the menu out of my hands and #fail.

I had candy. I ate the barbeque, chips and baked beans for lunch. Damn! I controlled portions and didn't go back for seconds like everyone else. I also drank a lot of water. But candy - that's a no-no.

This is what I will do DIFFERENT.

I am already back on plan. This will NOT be a free-day-I-will-start-over-tomorrow-because-I-messed-up-today type of day. No.

I am NOT throwing in the towel.

I am on my way to the gym, and I will eat light for the rest of the day. I stocked up on lots of fruit and veggies last night, so I have good food to choose from. I am also posting this NOW so I will be accountable.

I am REALLY trying to change my mentality. It can't be ALL or NOTHING. Grey areas do exist, even if it shouldn't be a color you choose often on this journey.

I will not give up easily. I will be consistent.

I struggle with consistency.

I know I am not supposed to be looking at the scale, but I did weigh this morning. I am down 3.4 lbs from last Tuesday.