Thursday, May 27, 2010

I can do anything.

Yesterday was my 34th birthday. I am officially in my “mid-thirties”, lol. But I’m okay with that! Older and hopefully wiser!

Diane (The Incredible Shrinking Family) left a comment on my Facebook page yesterday, where she said, “This is your year.”

So many people think of the beginning of one’s year being January 1. But Diane’s right – our “year” should begin with the day we are born! I appreciate her saying that, because it really made me think.

This is my year.

I have been struggling for a long time.
Struggling in my childhood.
Struggling as a single mom.
Struggling in my marriage.
Struggling with abuse.
Struggling with weight loss.
Struggling with finances.
Struggling with school.
Struggling with my job.
Struggling as a single parent (again).
Struggling with self-esteem.
Struggling with friendships.
Struggling.

Finally, finally… I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. After 15+ years of school (on and off) I am now certified to teach. I now have a teaching job doing what I’ve been wanting to do for such a long time, Special Education.

I was talking to the ex the other night, and he was telling me how proud he was of my getting my new job. He knows (and acknowledged) how hard I’ve worked to get here. But he said something that really made me think.

“You have now proven you can do anything you set your mind to. You have your dream job. The only other thing I know you’ve worked this hard on is your weight loss. Just imagine, Hollie, if you got down to your weight goal, too. You can do it, you know. That would be so great for you.”

My ex is a lot of things – asshole being the first word that comes to mind.

But he knows me. He knows how much I really want to lose this weight.

Now is my time. This is going to by MY year. I feel it.