Thursday, May 13, 2010

Butterflies

...in my stomach, that is.

I am so nervous about my interview tomorrow. This is BIG. I really want a job in this district.

I have been nauseous all day. Panicked. Stressed. I hate this feeling.

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Yesterday was day one of Weight Watchers, and I had a great day. My daily points is 36, I ended up eating 37 points (which I estimated was about 1550 calories). I made good, healthy choices, and drank 80 oz. of water.

My activity was GREAT yesterday. I started out by mowing the grass (25 min, burned 400 calories). Then, before dinner, I took the kids to the park and walked two miles around the track there (38 minutes, burned 500+ calories). If I remember correctly, that amounts to about 9 activity points. I felt "snacky" before bed last night, but just made myself go to bed so I wouldn't be tempted.

Many of you asked in the comments yesterday WHY I felt embarrassed about going back to meetings.

I think it's because I feel like I am going backward. I have tried WW before and it didn't get me to goal - why should I think it's gonna get me there now? Is this just another waste of time and money?

I also think going back to a structured diet plan is like admitting failure on my part. I have tried to do it on my own, and I just can't do it. I need the structure of a plan right now. But I also need a plan that will not restrict certain food groups; one that is adaptable and "real life". WW has always been that plan for me.

I was thinking about it today as I was eating fresh pineapple (that was soooooo good!). I could never have pineapple on Medifast, or if I was doing a no/low carb diet. Weight Watchers takes away the guilt by letting me pretty much have whatever I want. It's just up to ME to make the right choices when it comes to nutritious food for my body. So far, so good.

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Speaking of Medifast...

Yesterday before mowing the grass, I was looking for a quick "snack" to tide me over until dinner. I ended up drinking one of my leftover Medifast shakes and it was so refreshing! The numbers are also good - 90 calories, 0 fat, 4 grams of fiber, and 11 grams of protein - all for 1 ww point! I drank it at about 4 p.m. and was satisfied until dinner at 7 p.m. I will definitely be drinking these shakes while on WW. The Medifast shakes were always one of my favorite meals while on the plan - I am just glad I don't have to drink them all the time now!

Also, last week when I spoke about Medifast and exercise, I was IN NO WAY trying to knock their plan or anyone who does it. My motto is WHATEVER WORKS, DO IT! I was just frustrated by hearing so many people over the course of ONE DAY say they couldn't/wouldn't exercise while doing Medifast. But I know of SO many people who continue to have success on that plan, and I am so happy for them. It was just not for me.