Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Day 1/21 - Almost there!

Today started off strong, and seems like it will end on a good note! I was not on plan as far as eating goes, so I will be starting over tomorrow! I will start over every day until I get it right! I did get in exercise and all my water, and I didn't binge!

Breakfast: 1 egg, 3 egg whites, scrambled in 1 tsp. olive oil w/ ½ cup red/yellow/orange diced peppers and 2 c. baby spinach. Topped w/1/5 oz. fat free shredded cheddar cheese. I made this and ate it after I got to work because I woke up late (around 7:45 a.m.). This was good and filling, but I wasn’t really “feeling” it. I wanted sugar, not veggies.



A.M. snack: 10:45 a.m. – S’mores crunch bar (Medifast, forgot to take a picture)


Lunch: Cinnamon Pretzels (Medifast)


And downhill from there... Let's just say I should have got all the Easter candy out of the house. By the time I got home I was feeling like crap from the detox, and when I saw the candy I attacked it like a maniac, lol. But even though I messed up, I didn't keep going. I had a well-balanced dinner (grilled chicken, green beans, sweet potato fries) after I went on a walk.

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I have been reflective about my weight loss journey all day today. I was totally pissed off and motivated by the scale at the same time this morning… 301.2. WTF? I can’t BELIEVE I gained back all of the weight I lost on Medifast, except for 1 lb! That also means I have gained 10 lbs since last Thursday. Ugh. NEVER, NEVER, NEVER, NEVER going to do this sh*t again! Damn!

But the number depressed me deeply. After I caved and had the candy when I got home, I really wanted to scrap the walk I had planned. See, my baby’s soccer practice was cancelled, so I officially had the afternoon FREE today! I planned to walk for at least 30 minutes, and even though I messed up in the food department, and knew I was going to start my "day 1" again tomorrow, I walked anyway! For 36 minutes. I actually walked to CVS to pick something up - thought it would change things around a little bit. The walk felt good, and made me feel like less of a failure.

I decided to have a healthy dinner, but did elect to eat the rest of the bag of sweet potato fries I had in the freezer (one serving). I got a trash bag out and threw away everything in my kitchen that was tempting in any way! If I was about 50% with it today, I can make it to 100% tomorrow. I know I can. But I have to come off the sugar - I have to eliminate it from my body and my brain if this is ever going to work.

Tomorrow is a new (busy) day. In the morning I have to take the baby to the doctor to get her stitches removed... did I mention she busted her head open while we were out of town Saturday? Yeah... five stitches on her forehead! After work, I have class and after class I have three soccer practices to juggle. That means I can get plenty of exercise. Running around with the baby's team that I co-coach, and then while my son is practicing I plan on walking around the track.

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I have a new gadget that I used today that I am also going to use tomorrow. It's an interval timer by Gymboss, but it also has a stopwatch option so I can keep up with the exact time I am walking (which is good when I have to stop a lot or get interrupted by my kids).

Jake at Gymboss sent it to me for free to try out about a month or so ago, but today is the first day I actually used it! I do like it, and I think it would be perfect for someone doing Couch to 5K, or intervals at the gym. I think they are around $20 each, and can be purchased at http://www.gymboss.com/.

Speaking of gadgets, I REALLY want a heart rate monitor. I had one before, but it went crazy when I was near anything electrical or wore my Ipod. I would like one that monitors my heart rate and counts calories. PLEASE... any suggestions are appreciated!