Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Over food.

Since I have made up my mind to start Medifast, I have been binging. At first, I wasn’t really paying attention to it. But then yesterday, I realized what I was doing. I am trying to eat all of my favorite foods while I can. After I start Medifast, I am not going to be able to “treat” myself to the foods I love… not even once in a while. Those foods will be GONE until I reach goal… maybe beyond. Will I even WANT them anymore after I have reached goal? I really hope not…

One of the reasons I am going on Medifast is so that I can REALLY change my relationship with food. I want to enjoy food for what it is supposed to be – nourishment and energy for my body. Not what it has become… a crutch, a drug, and an addiction. Last night my oldest daughter and I were trying to decide what we wanted for dinner. Truthfully, I didn’t want ANYTHING. I am sick and tired of FOOD at this point. Nothing seems appealing to me. Lol… I’m sure I won’t feel like this after a week of Medifast food. But that’s how I feel right now.

I think this has really led me to the decision to start Medifast as soon as I get my package. I really don’t want to wait… I want to get started NOW. I am ready to stop feeling this way – fat, full, disgusted, bloated. My heartburn has even been coming back. UGH! Oh, and the binging is also over. I started my morning with a protein smoothie, and am drinking water as we speak. I will not binge until I get my food. If anything, I think that starting the process of getting my body off of the caffeine and sugar rush NOW will help once I start Medifast.

I am also going to get back in the gym this week. A few days of exercise will help me get focused. Medifast advises you to lay off the exercise for the first two weeks, since your body is going to be going through so many changes from the calorie restriction. I am going to play that by ear. If I feel great and can squeeze in a little time, I will. I just think I am going to shift from more cardio to more strength training. I want my new, transformed body to look as good as it possibly can!

So, over the next few days I am going to make a list. My list is going to consist of all my favorite foods that I am going to miss while I am on the next stage of my journey. Foods that I don’t need in the first place, but that I enjoy nevertheless. The day I start Medifast, I will burn that list. I will then be on my way to getting over food. At least, that is the plan.