Sorry if the Debbie-Downer post yesterday. I was in such a pissy mood. But guess what? I got over it. I stayed on plan, and ended the day feeling good. Thanks to Jules for challenging me to NOT give into my cravings. She is 9 months pregnant and publicly announced on Facebook that if I didn't cave, she wouldn't either. What a friend! And then my friend Yvette called me last night and gave me a 2-hour pep talk. She is blunt, and she could tell from my blog post that something just isn't right.
I have a lot of hard decisions to make over the next month or so. I need to make some changes to my life if I am going to save my sanity. I am all alone... even my two closest friends seemed to have abandoned me (not on purpose, but because THEY have lives, children, and stress, too). I might as well NOT have any family... they have all turned their backs on me and my children. It's just me, and that weight is just getting heavier and heavier. After talking with Yvette last night, I think I might have come up with a solution - one that will allow me to get that support system I need so badly. Yes, it might be hard, and yes, it might involve a drastic change. But in the end, I think it just might work. I am praying on it.
When I went to bed last night I felt a lot better - not only because I stuck to my diet, but because I felt like I had a plan! But when I hopped on the scale this morning, it showed a .6 lb. GAIN! WTF!? How is it that after eating a total of 830 calories, one can gain anything? Well, I have went back over all the numbers and made a chart of calories, fat, sodium, carbs, fiber, sugar, and protein since I started Medifast. I now see that the days that I eat tuna from a pouch, that my sodium is really high. Damn! It had to be one of my convenient favorites that is messing me up. I also realize that I have been slacking on my water. I ideally, I like to drink 1/2 of my body weight...which is around 140 oz. I have barely been getting 100 oz.
So today: I will stay on plan. I will drink 140 oz. of water. I will will get a lean and green meal in that is low in sodium. Its funny... the reason I went on Medifast is so that for all of one of my meals I could just grab and go... it takes the guess-work and preparation out of the equation for me. Except for that ONE meal a day. But since soccer started this week, my cooking time is out! I am warming up quick foods for the kids, and trying my best to get my Lean and Green meal on the fly. I thought tuna was a good idea - convenient! I guess not! I guess I can just cook up a bag of chicken breast so I can just microwave some veggies to go with.
I can do this.
I will do this.
I will NOT give up.
I will find a solution!