Ok... the scale officially has to go. I got up this morning to get a Feb 1 weight to compare with my Jan 1 weight. The last time I weighed I was down about 4 lbs for this WEEK. But today, I was exactly at the same weight I was on January 1... 290.4. On Friday, I weighted 286.2. I will admit, I wasn't totally OP yesterday, but I was within my calories and had an hour of cardio at the gym. I will also add that I know TOM is coming. So I know there is an explanation for the fluctuation... BUT IT STILL PISSES ME OFF!
For the last two weeks I have worked my butt off to stay 100% on plan for 6/7 days, and 80% on plan for that one day. I have eaten clean. Yesterday was the first time I've had caffeine or sugar in WEEKS. And even that was just a one-time thing - not an all day binge-out. I am feeling so good about the way I am eating. And exercise? I have been in the gym every day (except Sat b/c it was closed for snow). So, knowing that I am giving it my best effort, why am I gonna let this scale number mess with me?
I was so mad this morning, I went in the kitchen to make breakfast, and something in my head almost said "f*ck it... what difference does it make anyway...". Luckily, I don't listen to "Fat Hollie" a lot anymore, and proceeded to make my healthy oatmeal. I also know that "urge" to binge has to do with the cookies (sugar) I had yesterday morning. See, I KNOW all of this. I am listening and paying attention. I am not going to give in because I know I am more than just a number on the scale.
I can look in the mirror and see progress. I can feel my clothes feeling loose and comfortable again. I feel awesome. SO... I have decided to FINALLY take my measurements today. And I have decided to get rid of the scale. My relationship with it is unhealthy - the scale actually sits beside my bed, lol. Science tells me that the number on the scale will eventually catch up. I also got this from Prior Fat Girl (Jen)... it's about what the scale DOESN'T say:
YOU MUST READ THIS
This really opened my eyes, and it's so clear that it's time to take real measurements and stop relying on the scale to see my progress... As long as I am on plan and working out like I am, I will lose weight and get toned and reach my goal!