Thursday, February 4, 2010

Biggest Loser? Not me - yet!

Sorry it's been a few days since I last posted. All has been well... we just ended up being out of school for a week because of the snow! Today was our first day back. I am still plugging along... just got back from the gym. I have been every day this week since I was snowed in on Saturday. I am feeling so good about working out. I have also been eating well... not been journaling, though :( I take that back... I have been journaling for this Healthy Challenge we're having at work... just not counting calories. I am eating healthy/clean in the same measured portions that I have been eating for the past few weeks, so I am fairly certain I am in my range. (As I type this, I am vowing to get back on it!)

After I got pissed off at the scale Monday, I admit I was still pretty bummed about it for a day or so. I miss the scale, but I know I have to let that number go and look at what I can see. My daughter helped me take my measurements on Tuesday. I can also still feel my pants getting looser, and someone actually told me last night they could tell I was getting smaller (thought I was wearing SPANX!). Most importantly, I can SEE a difference in the mirror, and I feel like a million bucks. I just can't let that scale dictate my success.

I got a text from a friend on Tuesday during Biggest Loser. She suggested that we sign up to be contestants, and I immediately thought "Hell, no." When I told her the idea didn't interest me, she said "What if you could lose 100+ lbs?". I informed her that I planned on losing 100+ lbs WITHOUT being on Biggest Loser, it just might take longer. Besides, who would watch my children? Losing weight quick is not worth my children being without their only parent for weeks. No, I just don't think it's worth it. I realized after that short conversation that I am confident for the first time that I CAN and I WILL get this weight off! Yes, it might take time - hell, I have 130 lbs to lose! But no matter how long it takes, I will not give up. I will not quit, and I will work hard for my goal.

This is my year. It might take a little while for my progress to show up on the scale, but I AM making progress. In two weeks, I have been to the gym for at least 45 minutes every day except for two days! I am eating clean again (90%) and making changes in the way I am thinking about food. I am finally aware! Now, it's about being consistent and sticking with it!