Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Love/hate that SCALE!

Last week, I jumped on the scale on Monday morning to find that I had not lost a thing! Now, I know that I had only been about 80% on plan, but was still disappointed to see no loss at all. Even at 80%, it was still 100% better than what I had been doing! I felt really down about it, but was determined to push on. I added exercise last week, and logged my food every day. As you can see from my last post, I felt really good about myself. I am finally back on track…

Yesterday, I got on the scale…excited to see a loss because I know I have been on plan all week. My pants are already a little looser, so I was ready! Guess what? It showed a 5 POUND GAIN! What???? I was shocked, and so frustrated!!! So, I spent yesterday mentally evaluating what it is that I am doing wrong… what am I doing NOW that is different from this spring when I was losing? A few things stuck out…

1. Drinking coffee – last spring it TOTALLY cut out coffee. As of today, I am 4 days coffee-free! There was even a pot brewed in the classroom and I didn’t have any.
2. Artificial sweeteners – I know I drank a LOT of Crystal Lite last week because the water from the fountain at work tastes like toilet water. Starting yesterday, I am no longer using Crystal Lite – plain water only.
3. Calories too high? – Not sure about this one… I averaged about 1600 - 1900 calories (before exercise) last week. This week I am going to try to stay between 1200 – 1400.

I am not sure what is going on, but it is so frustrating. I am actually trying! But it also scares me… what if my body is not going to cooperate this time? What if I am now one of those people who can’t lose weight no matter what they do?

I promised my friend last week that I would throw out my scale, since it has the ability to really bring me down and affect my mood. But for whatever reason, I didn’t, and now I’m glad I didn’t. If I hadn’t weighed-in yesterday, I would have no idea that I was doing something wrong. I would have took for granted that clean eating, exercise, eliminating “real” sugar, and taking my supplements was enough. Obviously, its not.

Yesterday was as near perfect as I think I can get. I ended the day with a little over 1400 calories and drank 144 ounces of clear water. No coffee, no sugar, all of my supplements. No exercise, though… just didn’t feel like it. I got on the scale this morning, and 3.6 of the 5 lb gain was gone (thank GOD). I am going to watch the scale this week – so I can get an idea of what is working and what isn’t. I hate that damned scale, but it might just help me right now.