Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Happy Birthday, CJ...

Seven years ago today, I suffered a miscarriage. CJ was stillborn at 22 weeks gestation. It is still one of the worst experiences I've ever been through... For some reason I try to block out this day each year, but I never escape the sadness. On the bright side, God gave me a baby girl 3 years and 3 days later, and for that I am blessed. So, I've decided that instead of being sad, I will look forward to my baby turning FOUR on Saturday!

Today has been GREAT as far as eating goes. Again, I am eating good stuff and listening to my hunger cues. I tried baby carrots yesterday, and really love them with hummus - who knew? For breakfast I had a great smoothie, and for lunch lean turkey on whole wheat with baby carrots and hummus. I had an apple with peanut butter for a snack, and baked chicken, brocolli, and sweet potato fries for dinner.

Not being hungry helps so much - I feel more in control. When I got home tonight after picking my daughter up from tutoring and running to the grocery (for baby carrots!), I was changing out of my work clothes, and the next thing I knew I was on my way out the door for a walk. IN THE DARK, lol. I just felt like walking, so I did! I intended to walk around the neighborhood for about 30 minutes, but when I got home I discovered I had been walking for 55 minutes! I guess I just got in a zone...

The past couple of days has really been spent getting my "mind right". I really want to get back in touch with ME and start getting focused again. I am so important, and so worth the effort it takes to get healthy and lose weight. I am so blessed that I have been given the knowledge and tools for this journey. Now I just have to re-train my brain to stay focused on SUCCESS instead of all the other junk that gets in there, lol.