Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Day 38 - Shiny Happy People

That song has been in my head for the past couple of days... my oldest is SO annoyed that I busted out the old R.E.M. cd to play in the car, lol. But I am really trying to adjust my mood - something that is necessary for me from time to time. I have struggled with depression for most of my life, but am currently not on medication for it. The stress and struggle that is my life has just been so much the past couple of weeks. But I'm so thankful for the sunshine we've had the past few days (weather also affects my mood) so I can hopefully snap out of this funk. And music helps, too!

I had WW yesterday, and lost 6.6 lbs. That is for two weeks since I didn't weigh in last week because of the concert. I didn't stay for the meeting because I planned to go walking. Until, that is, my daughter reminded me of soccer practice! Damn! I had forgot. So instead, I spent 3 hours on the soccer field. But the sun and weather was so nice, and I got to work on my blanket.

I planned on doing a DVD before bed last night, but of course I didn't. I decided to do my hair instead, lol. Plus I was super-tired and wanted to get at least 6 hours of sleep - which I did! I also got a lot of cleaning done last night. I have really let my household chores fall to the wayside the past few weeks. I am so unmotivated to do ANYTHING it seems. The only think I am doing with any type of consistency is eat right and do my school assignments. I have decided I really need to focus and write out a plan for the next two months. There is SO MUCH I need to accomplish, but I have to get my ass in gear to make it happen. Mentally, I am my own worse enemy sometimes.

Today is the pizza party at school, and I'm no longer stressing out about it. I'm over it the urge, and ready to say no. I brought an awesome salad for lunch (roasted chicken, lettuce, tomato) and am even treating myself to a drizzle of reduced-fat honey mustard salad dressing that I found in my fridge. I have also brought watermelon and strawberries for my a.m. and p.m. snack. So, I feel like I'm getting a treat, only with healthy food instead of greasy, fattening pizza and chips. I'll let ya know how it goes!