Thursday, May 14, 2009

Day 32 - Back on Schedule

Today I am concentrating on getting back on schedule! I went through the day yesterday feeling like a zombie, but went to bed at 10:30 and got a solid 7.5 hours of sleep. I woke up this morning, and had oatmeal, and felt very good about getting back to my normal routine. My plan for today is to stay on my eating schedule (every 3 - 4 hours), and to make sure I focus on making the right food choices. Yes, avoiding sugar and caffeine is so much easier than I ever thought it would be. I don't have cravings for it (although I did think I needed a soda for pick-me-up yesterday, but didn't have one). But NEVER do I think I am "cured" or that I don't have a problem with sugar or caffeine anymore. I am an addict, and I will ALWAYS be an addict. So I have to FOCUS on everything I do that even remotely relates to food so that I will never be caught off guard and slip.

Yesterday was definitely one of those days that I felt like I had to pay attention. Numero uno... I was tired and sleepy. Research tells me that when your body is sleep-deprived, it produces chemicals that increase your appetite. The morning was the hardest, because I kept feeling hungry. I know it's because I only had a meal-replacement bar instead of my usual, filling breakfast. It would have been easy to pull over for fast-food, or hit the vending machine. But I just concentrated on making good choices, and that's how I got through yesterday without a breakdown. I want SO BAD to succeed right now. I am feeling so good about myself and my body and my weight loss. Summer is practically here, and I want to be a LOSER this summer. I want to wear sleeveless shirts and shorts and feel good about it, instead of worrying about how gross I look.

I went through my closet last night and started taking out the clothes that were WAY too big. Mostly the size 26's. I am going by that consignment shop today to see what the procedure is to consign. I also thought about eBay. I used to sell a lot of my clothes on eBay, but have noticed that over the past couple of years that not as many people are using it to buy/sell clothes. For the past few days I have been on there looking for deals, and I see that a lot of the good plus-sized clothes are still selling for a good price on there. I have really good stuff, so I might put a few things on there to see what happens. I know from past experience that consignment shops practically GIVE your clothes away. I would rather put in a little more work and get more money.

Clyde FINALLY came through with daycare money this week, so I think I might go and try to find a cheap pair of denim Bermuda shorts or capri's, since I can mix and match several different tops with those. Only 5 more days of school after today, woo hoo! I am SO ready for summer!