Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Sick and tired...literally.

The weekend didn't go well. I ate too much, made poor choices, and didn't journal a thing. I don't have an excuse, so I'll move on.

Sunday night the baby got sick, so I was up all night with her. Took her to the doctor yesterday morning, and she has sinus issues and an ear infection. She seems to be much better already. But last night I was WIPED out. I went to bed early, and woke up feeling terrible this morning. I have an earache and my throat is sore. Uggh.

So I faced the scale this morning, because I knew I needed to get a total loss/gain for February. It was worse than I expected. 307.4. That's a 6.4 lb GAIN since last WI, and put me at a 3 lb. GAIN for the month of February. I'm really pissed off at myself for backsliding, but I'm not going to let it consume me. I'm back on track RIGHT NOW, and that's all that matters.

I was reading Lyn's blog yesterday (Escape from Obesity), and I was really encouraged by the way she doesn't give up. She admits her stumbles and moves on. She doesn't give up. I contemplated for one moment this morning not posting the exact amount of weight I'd gained because I was embarrassed and didn't want to let down the people who follow my blog. But I thought about Lyn and her post from yesterday. I decided to hold myself accountable, post the damage, and get my ass back on track for March. I can do this - I CAN DO THIS. But I've got to start paying attention and focusing on me.

On a side note, I finally got my garage unpacked enough so I can use my elliptical. Problem is ITS BROKEN! WTH! Apparently the drum got bent during the move, so the pedals wouldn't even move when I unfolded it. I pried it out enough so now it will go, but it makes a terrible scraping noise. I was sick to my stomach about this. That elliptical cost me about $900 a year ago. I think I may still be able to use it, but I hate to make it worse. I have been contemplating joining our local fitness center for some time - mainly so the kiddos and I can use their awesome pool this summer, but also so that I can use their fitness equipment. I might need to reconsider doing that. It's only $200 for a six-month membership (including child care), but I am so afraid to spend money right now.

Weight watchers is after school today, and hopefully it will go well. I really depend on those meetings for motivation, but lately it seems like our meetings are lacking something. I don't feel a connection with our leader anymore - I don't know what's up with that. It's time to renew our At-work membership, and I will do it, though. Like I said, I need that accountability.