Thursday, February 26, 2009

A new day...

Yesterday ended badly. I wouldn't call it a binge, but I really lost control. I did so well yesterday until I got home. I planned on making some frozen cheese ravioli for dinner with some Ragu sauce. Then I noticed that I had a loaf of frozen garlic bread in the freezer. Yummy. So I got out my points calculator, and read my labels, and knew exactly what and how much I could eat. I would have exactly enough points left for this meal. But as that garlic bread was baking, I could feel myself slipping. I knew I was not going to stop at one portion.

Long story short, I went back for more ravioli and garlic bread. The only good thing I can say about it is that I kept track of what I was shoveling on my plate, and I journaled all of it. Every single bite. As I piled up in my recliner to watch Biggest Loser, I started craving something sweet. I got very close to driving to the store to buy ice cream and candy bars, but I didn't. Instead I settled for some frozen breakfast pastries that were in my freezer. I decided to go to bed before I could do anymore damage. I had heartburn, and felt like shit. That's the negatives. But there is a positive side:

1. I journaled every, single thing I ate yesterday. I kept track of portions so I could do this - even got the box of frozen breakfast pastries out of the trash so I could calculate points. Now I know that I went 20 POINTS OVER. I can't lie to myself and say it wasn't that bad. It was.
2. I drank 7 cups of water yesterday, and only had 2 diet sodas.
3. I am back on the wagon this morning, and will keep getting back on no matter how many times I fall off. I'm not quitting! No way!

This morning I packed my lunch, but forgot my oatmeal for breakfast. Since I need to eat breakfast to stay in control until lunch, I got a single serving of cereal from the cafeteria with a pint of skim milk for 4 points total. I have a tuna/cheese/spinach wrap for lunch, and fruit in my desk. I already had to talk myself out of going to the vending machine for candy this morning. I am chewing gum in an effort to keep my mouth busy enough that I can't shove anything in there. This is a struggle, but I know I can do it.

My goals today is to journal, drink water, and stay away from the vending machine!