Sunday, November 2, 2008

Who's that girl?

"Who is this lady with A.J.?" That's what I asked myself as I was looking through some old pictures I found on some CD-ROM's yesterday. I was looking back through some old vacation pics from 2005 (before I had baby #3 and gained all my weight back). I was flipping through and came across this picture that I don't remember ever seeing before. I know the little boy is my son at age 4 because I recognize the building (which was his preschool), but I can't figure out who the lady is walking with him. I know it's not his teacher, so I was almost disturbed at this photo with some random woman. As I sat here staring at the picture, racking my brain, I realized it was ME! Who? ME! I was wearing a size XL sweater from NY&CO and a pair of size 18 Levi's. And heels. I used to wear heels every day because I felt sexy when I wore heels, and I think they made my legs look thinner.

While I'm at it, I might as well show you a few more pictures of me from back in 2004/2005. I was about a size 18 in all of these pics, weighing about 230 - 240 lbs.

These pictures represent the "me" that I want to get back to. Some people might consider 240 lbs or a size 18 to be fat, but this was the smallest that I'd ever been in my adult life. Besides this time, the last time I wore a size 18 was in 8th grade! At this point, I had lost 100 lbs, so I was very comfortable in my skin because in my mind I'd achieved greatness. I mean, I was shopping in "regular" stores. I could wear an 18 without a "W" next to it. My self-confidence was through the roof, and I was still losing! I have no doubt that I could have kept going and got to my goal weight then if I'd not got pregnant.

But that was then, and this is now, and I WILL make it to goal this time thanks to the miracle of tubal ligation! No more babies for me! No more excuses!