Sunday, November 16, 2008

Picking up where I left off...

Wow, I can't believe it's been so long since my last post. I fell off the wagon. I didn't just fall off the wagon, I fell off it, then was dragged with my face in the ground for about 6 days.

Looking back, I guess I should have saw it coming. It started with one bad meal, then another, and another, until I was out of control. Each day I would wake up and resolve to do better, but would get off track by lunch time. It started with pizza, then led into cake and cookies. It was uncontrollable, and I was weak and dizzy from the sugar high. But I knew it couldn't continue. I wouldn't let myself stay in that condition, because that's not who I am anymore.

I got on the scale yesterday, and the damage was minimal. Since I completely skipped WI and WW last Monday, I will officially post my WI tomorrow. I have been back on track since Thursday, and I feel strong again. I made good choices at the grocery today, even though the little devil in my head was trying to convince me the crescent rolls were a good idea. Yeah, they're only 2 pts each, but I knew I just can't stop at one.

So I made a good recipe (it's posted in my recipe link), and expect to end the day well. I also made a point-friendly dessert, but haven't posted it yet because I want to try it first. I don't ever post recipes until I've tried them and like them.

I started a second job yesterday (Target), so I plan to continue on with my job at the school and my education plans. Although I am planning to transfer to a local school in the Spring instead of the online classes. And my husband got a job! He starts tomorrow, so I'm hopeful that he'll put forth the effort to do well.

I also wanted to say thank you to all of my friends who read this blog. I thought about you all every day, and felt guilty that I was purposely avoiding you because I had failed. But I remembered that this is a journey, and that everyone falls. I am picking myself up, though, so I can keep going with you guys!